Sixxam, just checking in on you sweet, you're doing brilliantly.. i think you're amazing, i bet your wife is proud of you. You said she is a model, how lovely for her, i used to be a model when i was in my late teens, i am 40 now so things aren't like that no more, though my partner still fancies me so thats all good there..we have great chemistry still, we've been together ten years so somethings working haha..
Like i said don't feel giulty for having a few benzo's as it won't hurt and they will help you out a treat, you say you're having like body zaps and iv had them too.. they are quite scary aren't they, maybe try and get hold of some lyrica for them as if i'm right, they should work for you there..and with the benzo's they should help out with a bit of sleep.. you're on day nine now so things should get easier, let us know how you're feeling today, hopefully while i am writing this you should be asleep, hope so anyway, let us know..........