Hey guys, awesome site you's have here. I've been a long time reader and have battled with opiote addiction since I was 18 years old.
It all started out there usual way, popping the odd perc here and there. I remember the first time ever popping one, it was like love at first taste. I have mainly been an oxy user and kept my use below 160mg a day for the most part. Fast forward to last December.......>>>>. My usual oxy hook up dried up and was cut off... So I went into a slight panic. And didn't have many solid hook ups. After a day of asking asking around I found out a family member was into hydromorphone and could easily get it for me.
I started with a hand full of 18mg , and would eat half of the beeds. But didn't much like the feeling. So I figured I'd give the old sniff a try.... Something I don't usually do. Bam!! That worked!! I thought perfect , roughly 30mg of this a day and I'm golden. Well fast forward to today...>>>>>>>. I'm here asking you guys for help and support. I currently have a 90-120mg a day hydromorphone (dilaudid) habit and I need it to stop. I have a beautiful young family and want to be the best man I can be.
Now.., six months ago I did quit cold turkey but that only lasted 3 weeks, and was absolutely fucking horrific. The pain almost killed me, but dealing with real feelings and emotions.... That was the real nightmare. I've lived and done some heavy dirt in my 32 years on this planet, so living with this is going to be tough, sober.
I guess the reason I'm here Is to ask for support as I ween down these pills, quickly, and jump off. I'm cutting my use to 30mg starting this morning. I will be using kratom to supplement. I also have some .5mg clonazepam. And a daily. 5mg addiction to them. But never the less I do have them.
I have a million things to talk about and share, hopefully I get a response and can shoot the shit with you guys.
It all started out there usual way, popping the odd perc here and there. I remember the first time ever popping one, it was like love at first taste. I have mainly been an oxy user and kept my use below 160mg a day for the most part. Fast forward to last December.......>>>>. My usual oxy hook up dried up and was cut off... So I went into a slight panic. And didn't have many solid hook ups. After a day of asking asking around I found out a family member was into hydromorphone and could easily get it for me.
I started with a hand full of 18mg , and would eat half of the beeds. But didn't much like the feeling. So I figured I'd give the old sniff a try.... Something I don't usually do. Bam!! That worked!! I thought perfect , roughly 30mg of this a day and I'm golden. Well fast forward to today...>>>>>>>. I'm here asking you guys for help and support. I currently have a 90-120mg a day hydromorphone (dilaudid) habit and I need it to stop. I have a beautiful young family and want to be the best man I can be.
Now.., six months ago I did quit cold turkey but that only lasted 3 weeks, and was absolutely fucking horrific. The pain almost killed me, but dealing with real feelings and emotions.... That was the real nightmare. I've lived and done some heavy dirt in my 32 years on this planet, so living with this is going to be tough, sober.
I guess the reason I'm here Is to ask for support as I ween down these pills, quickly, and jump off. I'm cutting my use to 30mg starting this morning. I will be using kratom to supplement. I also have some .5mg clonazepam. And a daily. 5mg addiction to them. But never the less I do have them.
I have a million things to talk about and share, hopefully I get a response and can shoot the shit with you guys.
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