Trevylianos
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Oct 21, 2019
- Messages
- 61
It seems I have had the curse of addiction since a young age, probably not writing a bio right now in here but might share more on my history including what drugs I was getting out of control with and the problems they have caused in my life.
Anyways I like what a fellow here was doing with keeping track of days. I actually will be trying that for 3 weeks and see how I am doing. Been relapsing for over a week now which is scary. Today will be my clean date that I start tracking from.
Day 0
Lots of shame and regret. Lots of work to do and getting a job should be the priority and then keeping it. Outside of working to keep me heading in the right direction daily meditation and lots of fitness and I always eat for health when I'm not relapsing badly. Also trying to salvage past connections with peers in a community I was involved in. Trying to repair what has been damaged if it can be salvaged and looking for new positive connections in wholesome communities. A stable job is only possible if I am being healthy outside it I have found. My father's boss who was the president of the firm was a raging alcoholic and would drink in his giant office all day long. It got so bad over the years he just fell apart in all kinds of ways and they had to tell him to resign. Anyways ya the beast can cost us greatly if we play a victim. I don't want to be the victim of my compulsions.
Anyways I like what a fellow here was doing with keeping track of days. I actually will be trying that for 3 weeks and see how I am doing. Been relapsing for over a week now which is scary. Today will be my clean date that I start tracking from.
Day 0
Lots of shame and regret. Lots of work to do and getting a job should be the priority and then keeping it. Outside of working to keep me heading in the right direction daily meditation and lots of fitness and I always eat for health when I'm not relapsing badly. Also trying to salvage past connections with peers in a community I was involved in. Trying to repair what has been damaged if it can be salvaged and looking for new positive connections in wholesome communities. A stable job is only possible if I am being healthy outside it I have found. My father's boss who was the president of the firm was a raging alcoholic and would drink in his giant office all day long. It got so bad over the years he just fell apart in all kinds of ways and they had to tell him to resign. Anyways ya the beast can cost us greatly if we play a victim. I don't want to be the victim of my compulsions.