been lurque'ing for awhile now
well, i've been lurking this site [and this thread in particular] for awhile now, thought i'd finally get registered and get in on all this...
i guess you could say i have a small opiate tolerance, w/ vikes only for the most part up until a few months ago. what was typical was 2-3 vikes, a drink, and i'd be good to go. til i read up on the dangers of liver toxicity from mixing w/ alcohol... so i cut that element.
a friend of mine stumbled upon some 100 mg kadian and started sharing the wealth. here's how they've gone:
1st try: opened cap, poured half of the beads into some applesauce, 30 mins fell fast asleep and that was the end of that.
2nd try: opened cap, poured all beads into applesauce, chomped em up w/ front teeth (didn't wanna get them all ground up in my molars -gross), didn't feel much for about 4-5 hrs, fell asleep, woke up and was all out of it. wouldn't say necessarily "euphoria," but felt floaty, kinda like how i feel on 2-3 vikes.
3rd try: wasn't planning on taking anything. was in parking lot for a club, had had a couple drinks, friend offered a 100 mg kadian again, popped it w/out thinking. felt hammered in club, didn't think about dangers of mixing morph& alcohol, had maybe 2 more drinks inside. came home, felt fine, passed out around 3am. next morning, waking up to throw up - totally uncontrollable; i've never gotten so sick in my life. fell asleep in a cold& hot sweat, alternating every 5 mins. woke up again every 20-40 mins just to throw up. nothing to throw up, but still getting violently sick. fell asleep for an hour or two, drank sips of water, threw them up minutes later. this business went on LITERALLY until darkness fell, so i'd say 9am-7pm. finally was able to get to bathroom to wash up. had terrible nightmares the whole time (and i hardly EVER recall any dreams, ever). freaked myself out - was this withdrawing? od'ing? how do you know when to head out to the ER? i've never felt my body trip out like that. my gf had the same effects, and she has a much lower tolerance (she'll only take 1/2 the 100 mg kadian, and then she doesn't feel it - takes a whole one, and she throws up a couple hours later and feels like crap).
4th or 5th time: floaty, more euphoric for sure, upped dosage to 1 dumped into an applesauce then half of another an hour later in the applesauce.
lately: NOT mixing with alcohol or anything, for that matter. spooked myself into thinking i nearly od'd that night when all we could do was throw up and sleep the next day "/ just done 1.5 or so, don't wanna push the envelope and get myself sick and all that...
am i missing out by jus taking the 100 mg kadian orally? reading about ppl plugging it, but ugh idk bout all that... is it that much of a difference? i guess i should add that i'm about 115 lbs, and the gf is about 105 lbs, so maybe that's relevant. sorry this is a long winded post - like i said, i've been lurking here for awhile w/ tons of questions/comments, so this is like a summation of everything i suppose.
any advice, comments, whatever is welcome.
thanks,
jus another newB