Yeah I have noticed my doses for "studying" (yes I do study while on it) have gotten larger than a medicinal use and I want that rush. This is playing with fire for me- I have had serious substance abuse issues in the past. But I recently left AA because of several reasons- I have never had a problem moderating alcohol, or marijuana for that matter. It's the harder things that pull my addiction strings. I am however using HAMS it is a form of moderation management. If anyone is having trouble with addiction LOOK IT UP IF YOU DONT FEEL AA WORKS FOR YOU. Anyways, today I decided to not use speed anymore for studying at least for a good 2-3 weeks to let the receptors heal. and back away from the flames- AND IF I do do it again for studying it will be via oral, or maybe every now and then snorting it. I might just go get a script for dex tho- seems safer with less abuse potential. HAMS does allow me to drink- but only on certain days, and in certain quantitites- with meth I am finding it very hard to stick to the guidelines- tho I have before with it