ReedWarrior
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- Apr 23, 2023
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Hello Bluelight forum,
I was on 35mg of methadone for the last 5 years, tapered down from 110 over the previous 8 years (13 years total.) Starting last Sunday my doctor began titrating me gradually onto Suboxone, called the Bernese Method I think. Today I stopped taking methadone and began taking the full 16mg of Suboxone. Long story short it's not working for shit and I am in hell.
He told me it would be a smooth, near effortless transition with only mild withdrawals. That turned out to be completely false. As my Suboxone dose got gradually larger, the withdrawals got more intense. I know the Suboxone is working because I feel loopy as hell, but it doesn't feel like an opioid to me at all. It reminds me of drinking cough syrup when I was a teen. I get dizzy spells I'm so effed up but at the same time I'm cold sweating, skin feels like its on fire, pounding headache, pain everywhere and absolutely no motivation to do anything but lay in bed. I feel no emotions but irritation with everything and everyone.
I'm starting to think this is a failure and I'm stuck on methadone, a prisoner of the clinic for life. Methadone works fine for me but the lack of mobility has crippled my career, made it difficult to help my elderly mother in another state. Any experience or opinions on this would be appreciated. Thanks.
I was on 35mg of methadone for the last 5 years, tapered down from 110 over the previous 8 years (13 years total.) Starting last Sunday my doctor began titrating me gradually onto Suboxone, called the Bernese Method I think. Today I stopped taking methadone and began taking the full 16mg of Suboxone. Long story short it's not working for shit and I am in hell.
He told me it would be a smooth, near effortless transition with only mild withdrawals. That turned out to be completely false. As my Suboxone dose got gradually larger, the withdrawals got more intense. I know the Suboxone is working because I feel loopy as hell, but it doesn't feel like an opioid to me at all. It reminds me of drinking cough syrup when I was a teen. I get dizzy spells I'm so effed up but at the same time I'm cold sweating, skin feels like its on fire, pounding headache, pain everywhere and absolutely no motivation to do anything but lay in bed. I feel no emotions but irritation with everything and everyone.
I'm starting to think this is a failure and I'm stuck on methadone, a prisoner of the clinic for life. Methadone works fine for me but the lack of mobility has crippled my career, made it difficult to help my elderly mother in another state. Any experience or opinions on this would be appreciated. Thanks.