Thatspaceykid96
Greenlighter
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- Dec 11, 2021
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Hello Blue lighters. It is me. Thatspaceykid. I cannot get into my account because I no longer have access.... But this is my new one. Seeing some of my old post... How sad and desperate I was is frightening. Good lord I was horrible.... We do recover. But not at the same pace... I'm at a point in my life where my insanity has me convinced I am in control. That I can use crystal meth IV so long as I do not go over board. It's insane. I'm by no means glorifying it. And I'm repulsed at myself. And just sad... Because I can't stop.....
I'm in control sort of. I actually have a car. I have worked consistent for a year or so now. Legitimate work. I'm doing better. Except im in my knees in credit card debt... And my life could never be worse... Or better....
It's complex. Now for the real reason behind this post. Another one of these post... But further evidence of Meths awesome power. Meth isn't like any other drug. I argue it's one of the worst... There's a reason it's illegal. Not just because of it's addictive properties, or dangers... It's not really to bad for you in my opinion if you take care of yourself..... But let's not argue about that. But the real reason is because it does in fact open up doors yo the spirit world ... Evil doors...
I have become a practicing witch... The Santisma Muerte has become my Goddess..... She is lovely. For my own protection and others that's all be said. But anyways.... I've literally been worshipping demons but.... It's like a compulsion.... Don't blow this out of wack folks. It's as harmless as burning incense, making offerings of salt, water, liquor, etc. By no means are any people being sacrificed.... But..... I've also become keen to Latin .... At times I don't even realize it until someone looks at me mortified..... I've been using for a long 10 years about. IV user.... Been through Hell..... Gave up every part of my soul for meth.... Realized I am homosexual but it's completely fucked up. I was molested as a kid..... But have lived in denial for years... But since I came out... And basically that means I just owned it. I don't date guys and I'm not one of those fruity gay guys. I'm more of a chill loner type.....
But I see this black aura..... Around users mainly but it does appear around others... But it indicates they will die.... If it's thick and I can't see through it.... They will literally die soon.... And if it's just like smokey sort of... They will come to a cross roads and the choice for life and death is theirs..... I can't explain it. It's the archangels Azrael's work. And Samaels.
I notice... Some times dogs give me a very terrified look. And mostly look directly at me.... Which is frightening.... They are not looking past me.... I've come to accept that I am seperate from God because of meth .... I hate God ..... But some times they will try to attack me or growl. Or they cower..... And I'm not an animal beater nor do I do drugs around animals. I love animals more than people.....
Children as well give me odd vibes or for some reason they like me... But it's horrible. Most times if I am alone with them for a moment or no one's around they start saying some fucked up dark stuff that no kid should know... And they talk about the devil.....
My family is repulsed by me. I spend most of time in my car using or doing other things....
I know how this all sounds... No my mental health is fine. I've slept and ate... I attend therapy and am on meds. And I'm not schizophrenic either .. . People have been dying in my town.... There's definitely some thing greater about... A higher presence.....
Folks.... The very act of IV drugs is black magic... Pharmakia is the term ... Drugs especially meth are interesting.... Because meth has long been associated with witchcraft demons etc ..
This should be interesting.
I'm in control sort of. I actually have a car. I have worked consistent for a year or so now. Legitimate work. I'm doing better. Except im in my knees in credit card debt... And my life could never be worse... Or better....
It's complex. Now for the real reason behind this post. Another one of these post... But further evidence of Meths awesome power. Meth isn't like any other drug. I argue it's one of the worst... There's a reason it's illegal. Not just because of it's addictive properties, or dangers... It's not really to bad for you in my opinion if you take care of yourself..... But let's not argue about that. But the real reason is because it does in fact open up doors yo the spirit world ... Evil doors...
I have become a practicing witch... The Santisma Muerte has become my Goddess..... She is lovely. For my own protection and others that's all be said. But anyways.... I've literally been worshipping demons but.... It's like a compulsion.... Don't blow this out of wack folks. It's as harmless as burning incense, making offerings of salt, water, liquor, etc. By no means are any people being sacrificed.... But..... I've also become keen to Latin .... At times I don't even realize it until someone looks at me mortified..... I've been using for a long 10 years about. IV user.... Been through Hell..... Gave up every part of my soul for meth.... Realized I am homosexual but it's completely fucked up. I was molested as a kid..... But have lived in denial for years... But since I came out... And basically that means I just owned it. I don't date guys and I'm not one of those fruity gay guys. I'm more of a chill loner type.....
But I see this black aura..... Around users mainly but it does appear around others... But it indicates they will die.... If it's thick and I can't see through it.... They will literally die soon.... And if it's just like smokey sort of... They will come to a cross roads and the choice for life and death is theirs..... I can't explain it. It's the archangels Azrael's work. And Samaels.
I notice... Some times dogs give me a very terrified look. And mostly look directly at me.... Which is frightening.... They are not looking past me.... I've come to accept that I am seperate from God because of meth .... I hate God ..... But some times they will try to attack me or growl. Or they cower..... And I'm not an animal beater nor do I do drugs around animals. I love animals more than people.....
Children as well give me odd vibes or for some reason they like me... But it's horrible. Most times if I am alone with them for a moment or no one's around they start saying some fucked up dark stuff that no kid should know... And they talk about the devil.....
My family is repulsed by me. I spend most of time in my car using or doing other things....
I know how this all sounds... No my mental health is fine. I've slept and ate... I attend therapy and am on meds. And I'm not schizophrenic either .. . People have been dying in my town.... There's definitely some thing greater about... A higher presence.....
Folks.... The very act of IV drugs is black magic... Pharmakia is the term ... Drugs especially meth are interesting.... Because meth has long been associated with witchcraft demons etc ..
This should be interesting.
but that's natural 
looool boys will be boys. But... I get so anxious too fam. And then before you know it I just hump em with my limp shit for a good 45 minutes 
most meth heads dont get any cuz we look like we have aids after we haven't eaten for days 
. So again you lose...... Either way the user loses. No doubt.
Remember one thing though, your soul is always within arms reach if you so desire. There’s no such thing as “too far gone.”
