Ok thanks for all your input guys I'm gonna take your advice and try and have a month+ off meph. I don't beleive it's taken me this long to realise I need a break ha, it's just so easy to pass off what I'm doing as normal when evryone around me is doing the same. Had some acid today which helped me prioritise a little so hopefully my sober self can put it into play ha. Ok so change of angle here, how many of you who realise they should stop/cut down actually do? Been 3 days now and I say I'll hold out for 30, how many of you acheive their abstinance periods? Once again thanks everyone it's very useful to have the perspective of someone other than my regular mates