Most Euphoric Cannabinoid?
I like to get high. A lot. Maybe it's because of excess dopamine released by cannabinoids, or maybe it's because I have an addictive personality, but in any case I love to just relax with something to get high off, feel good and feel an altered state of consciousness, doesn't really matter if it's synthetic cannabinoids or naturally occurring ones.
What I don't like, however, is anxiety. In fact, I despise anxiety, and it has ruined a lot of what I first thought was good cannabinoids for me.
I have this odd habit of wanting to get really stoned, even if countless amounts of previous personal experiences shows me that I'm likely to get a panic/anxiety attack and become way more stoned than I had wished. Or well, I don't really have a problem with getting more stoned than planned, I just have a problem with the anxiety ruining the whole thing, making me scared shitless of how high I am and removing anything enjoyable from the rush. As Arthur Roche once said, Anxiety is a thin stream of fear trickling through the mind. If encouraged, it cuts a channel into which all other thoughts are drained. Getting high makes it much more easy to "encourage" anxiety, especially on certain cannabinoids like JWH-018, and once I start feeling anxious it's like a feedback loop of anxiety that keeps intensifying itself, eventually causing a full-blown panic attack, or a much less enjoyable high.
That is why I am now looking for a new lover (cannabinoid) to use without fear of freaking out, at least not as easily as with other cannabinoids. I just want a cannabinoid to smoke in order to feel good, be happy and feel an altered state of consciousness (there is something very appealing with that for me). So far I have tried:
JWH-018 - The worst of them all. This chemical hates me, and I hate it even more. It always makes me scared and panicking, at higher doses I have gotten really bad highs to the point of thinking I was going to die, worst experiences I have ever been through in my entire life. A JWH-018 overdose is like jumping right in to the middle of a storm of anxiety, panic and dissociative hell, these few experiences have made me despise JWH-018 with my whole heart and soul.
JWH-019 - More pleasant, less anxiety-inducing than most cannabinoids, although I have freaked out at times when overdosing without tolerance. However, after a while of smoking this cannabinoid tolerance builds up and it's like you hit a limit, you can't get higher after a certain point no matter how much you smoke. This gives me the feeling of that something is missing with the cannabinoid, that it lacks a bit in intensity and highness, I only become "half-satisfied" when smoking this cannabinoid and it ends up with me constantly refilling trying to get to a more satisfying point.
JWH-122 - Very long lasting, something that has made this cannabinoid the current favorite for me, although I still want another option. It lasts for about 3-5 hours depending on tolerance, this lets me relax without having the need to constantly refill like I do on other cannabinoids. It also saves a lot of beating on the throat. However, on higher doses this cannabinoid is very anxiety-inducing, and it can be hell having a bad trip for about 2-3 hours since it's so long lasting. On higher doses I get open and closed eye visuals, really fucked up thoughts and I start hearing voices in my head. Normally this would all be very fun, but added to these effects is a layer of anxiety which makes everything scary, it always ends up with me trying to calm myself down, cursing myself for smoking so much and eventually going to bed to relax and trying to get rid of the nasty anxiety.
JWH-250 - Reminds me of 018 but without so much anxiety. There's still some though, especially at overdoses, but it's more tolerable and I mostly get enjoyable, trippy highs with this cannabinoid. However, it is extremely short lasting, I have to refill every 20 minutes once I have developed some tolerance, I can barely even put down the pipe and enjoy a movie or something before feeling that the effects are already dropping.
JWH-073 - More euphoric and clear headed than most cannabinoids, but still anxiety-inducing at higher doses. However, this is my second favorite after JWH-122, and I often use JWH-073 in combination with JWH-122, as the JWH-073 provides a little more trippy and euphoric peak to the otherwise quite slow and stoning JWH-122. It is a shame that it only lasts for about an hour, or as low as half an hour with tolerance.
Now I wish to try out something new, as stated above. Something that is more happy and gives you little or no anxiety and panic. I have looked up JWH-081, JWH-210 and JWH-200 but there is very little and often contradictory information on these. All I want is a cannabinoid that I can get high off, that makes me feel good and happy, and that makes me feel high/stoned, both in mind and body if possible. Long-lasting cannabinoids are preferred, as I would rather not have to refill 2-4 times an hour in order to stay at a comfortably high level, but if sacrificing throat health means I can get a good high with no anxiety at all, I would gladly take it.
Could Bluelight please help me find the cannabinoid that suits me the most?
Oh and I'm not looking for weed. I have my reasons for choosing synthetic cannabinoids, no need to discuss it further.
