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This is not a journal entry and I am seeking people's experience with microdosing, chronic dosing, ROAs, and so forth. safety first. Please read the entire thing but if you don't, here's the gist:
Does anyone have any information about micro dosing this on a regular basis? I am not here to encourage or promote anyone to try this stuff for any reason. Please be careful. Yes it's a wonderful substance but I've never taken anything that could have had me killed or arrested so many times in a single month. Except maybe ODing and binging on phenazepam, but I can't remember that entire month at all.
3-MeO-PCP is extremely important. It's important for people like me, who suffer from delibitating mental illnesses. Anxiety and depression have wrecked my academic, social and career life, again and again and again.
I use drugs to self medicate. I have had anxiety and depression probably my entire life. I have been on and off medications, tried OTC, "natural" herbs and foods, diets, exercise, spirituality, etc. Every single one of these has given me an insight and pushed me forward toward me feeling closer to being able to maintain a stable life that won't trim decades out of my life span. Mindfulness meditation was discovered by me whilst searching for a way to always feel the anti-depressant effects I have on psychedelics. Spirituality as well. When I practice vipassana meditation, I have a tranquil feeling that I get only on LSD, DMT, 2Cs, etc. I can see that 10-20-30 thousand hours of meditation can be significantly helpful to me towarf self healing or at least managing my mental illnesses.
I'll work towards that, but in the meantime a chemical catalyst is not out of the question. Depression has taken at least a decade of my life. Forget weed, depression is like being on pete's couch and shitting yourself without caring, as long as you can toss and turn in some way to avoid a bit of discomfort and remain seated and left alone for as long as possible at any cost.
Ketamine, acid, amphetamines, heroin, cocaine, MDMA, countless other chemicals and conotations including Rx meds have all given me at the very least the benefit of the experience, and more often than not, have increased my empathy and lowered my anxiety through insights I've had during these experiences.
I've tried everything I could get my hands on whether it's a chemical or not. Anything to make me feel normal or to get me to function in my daily life. I love life and I want the "playing field" even. I know that's not possible but I myself want to be at least at *some* of my potential. I want to wake up and be able to go into work miserable like everybody else, I don't mind the monday blues, I don't mind facing hardships and situations that may cause stress or anxiety. That's normal. But when you're mentally ill, these feelings are multiplied to the point where ending one's life becomes a sane thought. Thisi is abnormal.
Traditional psychedelics plus the analogues (2Cs, 25s, etc), ketamine, MXE and 3-MeO-PCP specifically have a potent anti-depressant effect. They have A LOT of effects, like visual distortions, mania, vasoconstriction, change in appetite and heart rate, change in attention span, memory, and so forth, but there is a specific aspect that these drugs share for people who suffer from depression. It's hard to explain. I want to point out that yes uppers and downers do help with depression or anxiety, but some drugs make you feel like Adam must have felt, when he landed his spaceship on this rock. The beauty and curiousity of opening the hatch and seeing a bright new day. Things need to be enjoyable otherwise an organism cannot function. Depression is extremely serious and more damaging to one's health than anyone who doesn't suffer from it can imagine.
Can I get over my illness by spirituality or intellectually figuring something out?
Could I fix it without having side effects such as euphoria, mania, hypersexuality, and the obvious damage to my body and soul?
The ketamine and depression studies and the new antidepressants these companies are working on are promising (GLYX-13 for example.) but until then, I still need to find a stable regimen.
I have found the following to work for me at one point or another. Thse are just my experience and NOT recommendations.
* Low dose (~5-10mg) sublingual doses of 2C-E daily helped.
* Low dose insufflated 25C/25I-NBoMe helped but tolerance built up quickly. By low dose, I mean that this regimen and the 2C one provided NO visual distortions, racing thoughts, loss of concentration, etc. The dose used is not even measurable. perhaps a line that is 1x2 pixels, maybe even a pin prick sized dose.
* LSD and analogues in low doses help a lot but cost/accessibility make this regimen problematic.
* Ketamine and MXE. This stuff is great for depression. MXE specifically because ketamine for non-recreational purposes can only be taken intramuscularly. When counting tolerance, you will find yourself trying to snort cigarette sized lines to feel anything. Both of these have to be disqualified because of the bladder issues long term (it's not that big of a deal but should be mentioned here), the cost, potency (they are potent, but we're talking about taking a chemical over months, or years, daily. It adds up.)
3-MeO-PCP is extremely potent and you should NEVER try it before reading my post here and probably every piece of info you can find on it.
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads...ead-Part-2?p=12150447&viewfull=1#post12150447
That out of the way and now let's exclude getting "fucked up" on this stuff or any drug, having recreational or manic effects, etc. 3-MeO-PCP has the potential to make long lasting changes in a person, for better or worse. It also has a unique anti-depressant effect, if one can notice it cognitively aside from mania, euphoria, etc. If you do not suffer from depression then I might be getting my point across precisely. If you've had depression lift from say, Zoloft or Prozac, you might know what I'm talking about. Zoloft did wonders for me when it worked.
Does anyone have any information about micro dosing this on a regular basis? I am not here to encourage or promote anyone to try this stuff for any reason. Please be careful. Yes it's a wonderful substance but I've never taken anything that could have had me killed or arrested so many times in a single month. Except maybe ODing and binging on phenazepam, but I can't remember that entire month at all.
Does anyone have any information about micro dosing this on a regular basis? I am not here to encourage or promote anyone to try this stuff for any reason. Please be careful. Yes it's a wonderful substance but I've never taken anything that could have had me killed or arrested so many times in a single month. Except maybe ODing and binging on phenazepam, but I can't remember that entire month at all.
3-MeO-PCP is extremely important. It's important for people like me, who suffer from delibitating mental illnesses. Anxiety and depression have wrecked my academic, social and career life, again and again and again.
I use drugs to self medicate. I have had anxiety and depression probably my entire life. I have been on and off medications, tried OTC, "natural" herbs and foods, diets, exercise, spirituality, etc. Every single one of these has given me an insight and pushed me forward toward me feeling closer to being able to maintain a stable life that won't trim decades out of my life span. Mindfulness meditation was discovered by me whilst searching for a way to always feel the anti-depressant effects I have on psychedelics. Spirituality as well. When I practice vipassana meditation, I have a tranquil feeling that I get only on LSD, DMT, 2Cs, etc. I can see that 10-20-30 thousand hours of meditation can be significantly helpful to me towarf self healing or at least managing my mental illnesses.
I'll work towards that, but in the meantime a chemical catalyst is not out of the question. Depression has taken at least a decade of my life. Forget weed, depression is like being on pete's couch and shitting yourself without caring, as long as you can toss and turn in some way to avoid a bit of discomfort and remain seated and left alone for as long as possible at any cost.
Ketamine, acid, amphetamines, heroin, cocaine, MDMA, countless other chemicals and conotations including Rx meds have all given me at the very least the benefit of the experience, and more often than not, have increased my empathy and lowered my anxiety through insights I've had during these experiences.
I've tried everything I could get my hands on whether it's a chemical or not. Anything to make me feel normal or to get me to function in my daily life. I love life and I want the "playing field" even. I know that's not possible but I myself want to be at least at *some* of my potential. I want to wake up and be able to go into work miserable like everybody else, I don't mind the monday blues, I don't mind facing hardships and situations that may cause stress or anxiety. That's normal. But when you're mentally ill, these feelings are multiplied to the point where ending one's life becomes a sane thought. Thisi is abnormal.
Traditional psychedelics plus the analogues (2Cs, 25s, etc), ketamine, MXE and 3-MeO-PCP specifically have a potent anti-depressant effect. They have A LOT of effects, like visual distortions, mania, vasoconstriction, change in appetite and heart rate, change in attention span, memory, and so forth, but there is a specific aspect that these drugs share for people who suffer from depression. It's hard to explain. I want to point out that yes uppers and downers do help with depression or anxiety, but some drugs make you feel like Adam must have felt, when he landed his spaceship on this rock. The beauty and curiousity of opening the hatch and seeing a bright new day. Things need to be enjoyable otherwise an organism cannot function. Depression is extremely serious and more damaging to one's health than anyone who doesn't suffer from it can imagine.
Can I get over my illness by spirituality or intellectually figuring something out?
Could I fix it without having side effects such as euphoria, mania, hypersexuality, and the obvious damage to my body and soul?
The ketamine and depression studies and the new antidepressants these companies are working on are promising (GLYX-13 for example.) but until then, I still need to find a stable regimen.
I have found the following to work for me at one point or another. Thse are just my experience and NOT recommendations.
* Low dose (~5-10mg) sublingual doses of 2C-E daily helped.
* Low dose insufflated 25C/25I-NBoMe helped but tolerance built up quickly. By low dose, I mean that this regimen and the 2C one provided NO visual distortions, racing thoughts, loss of concentration, etc. The dose used is not even measurable. perhaps a line that is 1x2 pixels, maybe even a pin prick sized dose.
* LSD and analogues in low doses help a lot but cost/accessibility make this regimen problematic.
* Ketamine and MXE. This stuff is great for depression. MXE specifically because ketamine for non-recreational purposes can only be taken intramuscularly. When counting tolerance, you will find yourself trying to snort cigarette sized lines to feel anything. Both of these have to be disqualified because of the bladder issues long term (it's not that big of a deal but should be mentioned here), the cost, potency (they are potent, but we're talking about taking a chemical over months, or years, daily. It adds up.)
3-MeO-PCP is extremely potent and you should NEVER try it before reading my post here and probably every piece of info you can find on it.
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads...ead-Part-2?p=12150447&viewfull=1#post12150447
That out of the way and now let's exclude getting "fucked up" on this stuff or any drug, having recreational or manic effects, etc. 3-MeO-PCP has the potential to make long lasting changes in a person, for better or worse. It also has a unique anti-depressant effect, if one can notice it cognitively aside from mania, euphoria, etc. If you do not suffer from depression then I might be getting my point across precisely. If you've had depression lift from say, Zoloft or Prozac, you might know what I'm talking about. Zoloft did wonders for me when it worked.
Does anyone have any information about micro dosing this on a regular basis? I am not here to encourage or promote anyone to try this stuff for any reason. Please be careful. Yes it's a wonderful substance but I've never taken anything that could have had me killed or arrested so many times in a single month. Except maybe ODing and binging on phenazepam, but I can't remember that entire month at all.
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So you can just take xtc, benzo's, speed... and the next day feel "fine" , you would just be a bit tired.
