Sleep deprivation & dopamine have finally done me in. About a half hour ago was convinced my color was ashen & I was dying, so I called emergency... and they said my coloring was fine, which put me into shock (not to mention they got to see this messy-ass apartment).
Seems I'm seeing everything in sepia and Photoshop filter tones. Shortly after they left suggesting I might be hallucinating I noticed that my perception is abnormal indeed, all the senses. That's an understatement, it is utterly fucked... either beginning stage dopamine psychosis or just sleep deprivation, God alone knows. Fuck.
Naah... would be nice. With perception this screwy I'm iffy about even leaving the house until I get a solid sleep... clearly one night after five days/nights binging wasn't nearly enough. This feels like heavy duty sleep deprivation, although I'm sure dopamine is a factor.Shit mate. You'll be alright I'm sure. Do you have benzos on hand? They'll help.
Shit mate. You'll be alright I'm sure. Do you have benzos on hand? They'll help.
Shit mate. You'll be alright I'm sure. Do you have benzos on hand? They'll help.
I'm in full blown dopamine psychosis and trying to keep a handle on the hallucinations (not to mention the constant twitchy, jerky, jumpy, jittery behavior) without having to call someone as the ordeal of all that shit is unbelievable and makes a bad situation worse. It's just fucked up and undignified is all for something so utterly fucking pointless as a drug.... as my hands turn from red, too yellow, to brighter red back to yellow again... fuck.Dedbeet: It's sleep dep. I know. I've only once been through it due to a dodgy batch of Peeve. ( Back in the day )
Yeah, that's what I'm doing (and that's how it seems... like there's a lot of weird shit going on all over the place and you're not sure WTF it is). It kinda helps to talk about it too... surprised my thinking mind seems to be working relatively OK while everything else has gone straight to hell. Probably cuz I tend to focus on the message when typing and forget everything else.I feel for ye man. I went through psychosis from peevee (for the 2nd time) just before christmas.
The hallucinations were horrific. Its crazy to think that your own mind can conjur up so many fucked-up images/people/scenarios.
Theres not alot you can do except ride it out & keep reminding yourself that almost everything you are seeing is a hallucintation.
I also had Seroquel & Zyprexa on hand during my last psychosis but they didn't stop it or even put me to sleep.
So just try to remain calm & try your best to ignore the horrible visions you are seeing. You should be over the worst of it in 7 or 8 hours.
& for gods sake PLEASE throw the rest of your peevee down the toilet ASAP.
You do realize that having peevee lying around (even a small amount) and everyone telling you to flush it, makes you want to go use it, right? I mean, you could even say "what the hell, I'm already hallucinating, so what's a few more, right?"I have had psycosis with this before and I feel for you!
Just think how cheap it is, and still legal to get yourself some more when/if you want it and give it the flush
However, the palms of my hands are bright red (almost as in fire engine) and swollen and I have no clue why...