It doesn't help telling me that my expectations about not feeling anxious or depressed again are unrealistic. I did not even feel a *drop* of anxiety/depression prior to the LTC and thus expect no less.
The other thing I wonder is if CBT didn't work because I didnt believe in it enough
Imagine going to CBT for resentment when resentment reduced the effectiveness of CBT
But seriously though, I have gotten a big resentment vibe off of a lot of people with various issues (not just LTCs) and I promise you guys that the resentment never helps them. It takes a long time to learn to "let go", as cheesy as that sounds. While it may be something that ultimately happens "overnight" for some people, it's usually years in the making.
There is also a lot to be said for being grateful for whatever function/health/quality of life we have left, but there is a strange learning curve to losing things and being grateful for what we have left.
For example, people with mental health issues typically lament their mental health issues without realizing they should appreciate their physical health every moment of every day, then they lose their physical health and they'll say "I would give anything to go back to just mental health issues".
If you lose both your mental and physical health, then it usually becomes a matter of appreciating just how much mental and physical health you have left (actively improving health aside).
Socrilus, I know you would like a very active way to participate in recovery, something like going to physical therapy to recover from an injury or something. You just have to lift the weights if you will, in that physical scenario. But mental health recovery can sometimes be very passive.
It may not be as much about what you do as much as it may be about what you don't do. Letting go of resentment and regret for example, that's something that's hard to do actively.
If it was "thinking" that got somebody into regret and resentment mode, then it may not be thinking that gets them out of it. The answer may be a change in attitude rather than gaining new knowledge.