Hi! I'm writing this a little out of curiosity.
I took E when I was 14-15 like 3 times and then didn't touch until last year (when I was 26), took it 3 times, then swapped to pure MDMA. I've been depressed since I was a kid and never really experienced happiness. Several suicide attempts before I was 20. Great deal of self hate. 2 1/2 year ago I was diagnosed with BPD, GAD, Bulimia, also get treated for BDD but don't have the diagnose. I started a DBT treatment, for yous that don't know you go to group therapy once a week and individual 1 a week, heavy, hard but the best thing that could ever happen to me. I've always been against (personally) medicine, and only eaten anti depressant for like 6 months way before I started the treatment and I hated the feeling of it. I don't have the diagnose BDP, depression and bulimia anymore.
Ive smoked weed regularly for 3 years now 5-10 grams a month(mostly 5 now days). And it absolutely have helped me so much, it never let me escape my feelings and so, but I still never experienced happiness that lasted more than just for the moment. Then last year when I took E for the first time again in 12 years I experienced happiness (1 pill). And for some reason, after I got to feel it (even of course it was much stronger than you would feel in a normal day to day life) it have changed so much for me. I think more positive, I know when to stop my downward spirals and I really feel I know what to work towards. My anxiety is still there, but it is so much less than before, I work my ass of to always trying becoming "the best version of myself". Of course it's a lot of factors that play in but I feel this of contributed a lot
I use MDMA 1-3 months gaps in between, 200 mg dose, no redose. (Going to cut down now to bigger gaps in between) I'm vegan, training 3-5 times a week, walk my dog 4-5 times a day, when drinking I never drink so I get drunk and I seldom touch alcohol anymore. The only thing I'm concerned with is my memory. I don't know if it's the MDMA, weed or if it is my stress, maybe a mix.
I understand the side effects and I feel that I am very careful and responsible. I'm just very curious how this have helped me so much psychological and hope I could get some of your stories if you have any?
I took E when I was 14-15 like 3 times and then didn't touch until last year (when I was 26), took it 3 times, then swapped to pure MDMA. I've been depressed since I was a kid and never really experienced happiness. Several suicide attempts before I was 20. Great deal of self hate. 2 1/2 year ago I was diagnosed with BPD, GAD, Bulimia, also get treated for BDD but don't have the diagnose. I started a DBT treatment, for yous that don't know you go to group therapy once a week and individual 1 a week, heavy, hard but the best thing that could ever happen to me. I've always been against (personally) medicine, and only eaten anti depressant for like 6 months way before I started the treatment and I hated the feeling of it. I don't have the diagnose BDP, depression and bulimia anymore.
Ive smoked weed regularly for 3 years now 5-10 grams a month(mostly 5 now days). And it absolutely have helped me so much, it never let me escape my feelings and so, but I still never experienced happiness that lasted more than just for the moment. Then last year when I took E for the first time again in 12 years I experienced happiness (1 pill). And for some reason, after I got to feel it (even of course it was much stronger than you would feel in a normal day to day life) it have changed so much for me. I think more positive, I know when to stop my downward spirals and I really feel I know what to work towards. My anxiety is still there, but it is so much less than before, I work my ass of to always trying becoming "the best version of myself". Of course it's a lot of factors that play in but I feel this of contributed a lot
I use MDMA 1-3 months gaps in between, 200 mg dose, no redose. (Going to cut down now to bigger gaps in between) I'm vegan, training 3-5 times a week, walk my dog 4-5 times a day, when drinking I never drink so I get drunk and I seldom touch alcohol anymore. The only thing I'm concerned with is my memory. I don't know if it's the MDMA, weed or if it is my stress, maybe a mix.
I understand the side effects and I feel that I am very careful and responsible. I'm just very curious how this have helped me so much psychological and hope I could get some of your stories if you have any?