@Juicewrldfan Yeah man, I agree.
It's hard because I'm always tempted with low hanging fruit, or frustrated with the status quo, or annoyed at a coworker, or misunderstanding my girlfriend, or driving wrecklessly, or day dreaming toxic thoughts - which causes me to drink.
So, I don't know, I'm sort of struggling with my current situation. And how I just don't find it fulfilling
Man, I feel that. It resonates a lot with me. I get bored and unfulfilled easily or used to a few weeks back.
It’s been slipping back to that some but not the majority of my time now. I feel like that’s highly related to depression or vice versa. Maybe it’s causing the depression in my “mixed state” maybe it’s not a true mixed state I’m in but just I injured my knee so can’t do much right now that was bringing me fulfillment like work and exercise and cleaning.
My wife is stuck with that right now and I feel bad but I was doing it all pretty much before I was injured. I feel unfulfilled in my relationship most of the time but not sure if I’m willing to throw in the towel on it yet.
Just she is lazy, and eats herself into gain in ng alot of weight and then cries about gaining the wait when I would remind her to exercise and how we are working on nutrition in a kind way and not often but still annoys me. But I guess what annoys me more intense mindedness always complaining and crying about every little thing. I mean now when she gets in and out of the chair she moans and groans like really? Stop it.
It’s your fault you ate yourself into that and now you want my sympathy after trying to help you and you did nothing to improve you situation. That’s what I hate about it. She doesn’t even try. Well I got her to do 2 minutes of 5 lb barbels I bought for her.
It’s just I’m trying to progress not backslide and that mentality is contagious when I’m around it so much so I have to keep my guard up.
And if my job isn’t challenging or rewarding then I get like that too; unfulfilling. That’s why I do leadership. Always challenging and rewarding because people are complex and get to help them and the team. Usually if you help one person even you help the team.
I try to set goals every day that bring me closer to my big goals write them down and then I plan how to execute them for that day. That alone will bring fulfillment for me but I exercise to first thing in the morning. Sets my day up for success and discipline. The more I exercise discipline the more I exercise my will the more powerful it becomes.
I know probably sounds a little manic but idk…