angryteabag
Bluelighter
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- Jan 12, 2010
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I have a question.
Recently ive been doing this personality building thing and it really opened my eyes to something that has been sort of not so apparent in my life up till now.
Ive always been rather quiet and shy and have been working on a way to break out of my shell. now i have no fear in talking to people ANYONE randomly anywhere but i feel that i lack personality or substance. like im one of those people you would forget because theres just nothing to me. My interests are ill defined even to myself and i find myself just in general less feeling then i was before, all of my emotions are dulled.
A friend of mine is a lot more shy then I am yet people like him more because he is witty, when you have a conversation with him you feel like saying "hes a really great guy"
Im not asking this because i want to be liked by other people, I just dont feel i can live passing the days by with no personal fulfillment. without anything that i genuinely enjoy. if that makes sense.
I did have a period of time when i habitually smoke cannabis and life was a lot nicer then haha. I used to go for walks just for the hell of it.
I remember taking a psychedelic once before and it brought me back to when i was teased as a kid growing up and it showed me how i seek approval from people by acting victimised. but at that point i was just overwhelmed and couldnt take it got taken home.
Do you think LSD/magic mushrooms/DMT/salvia/anything would help define myself to myself?
Recently ive been doing this personality building thing and it really opened my eyes to something that has been sort of not so apparent in my life up till now.
Ive always been rather quiet and shy and have been working on a way to break out of my shell. now i have no fear in talking to people ANYONE randomly anywhere but i feel that i lack personality or substance. like im one of those people you would forget because theres just nothing to me. My interests are ill defined even to myself and i find myself just in general less feeling then i was before, all of my emotions are dulled.
A friend of mine is a lot more shy then I am yet people like him more because he is witty, when you have a conversation with him you feel like saying "hes a really great guy"
Im not asking this because i want to be liked by other people, I just dont feel i can live passing the days by with no personal fulfillment. without anything that i genuinely enjoy. if that makes sense.
I did have a period of time when i habitually smoke cannabis and life was a lot nicer then haha. I used to go for walks just for the hell of it.
I remember taking a psychedelic once before and it brought me back to when i was teased as a kid growing up and it showed me how i seek approval from people by acting victimised. but at that point i was just overwhelmed and couldnt take it got taken home.
Do you think LSD/magic mushrooms/DMT/salvia/anything would help define myself to myself?