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SethRech

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Hey everybody, my name is Seth, I am 22 years old and an economics major.

Let's get ahead to my Problem: I never took MDMA or any other drugs. (well, I smoked Weed).
So last year, it was October the 1st, I smoked way too much pot and got way too drunk, later that night we went to a party and everything was cool. There was one dude there that was selling drugs and I kinda befriended him. After we talked for a while he told me that he had LSD in his bottle... Well, I took a sip.
Nothing special happened that night, I didn't see anything nor did I behave unusually. The only thing I know for sure is that I thought the lights were pretty and that I got a little bit tired, sat down and felt high. I was responsive and did not talk weird stuff. We went home and I felt great.

The next morning I woke up and also felt great... but then I started to think about what I did... (I am pretty basic, I usually don't take drugs)
After that, I got a pretty bad feeling and started googeling what that feeling could be... I looked up all kind of stuff about LSD and possible long term effects... I got really scared and was very anxious. I didn't leave my dorm for 4 days because I was scared that I might see things differently and get hallucinations. After the fourth day I went to the hospital and talked with a Psychiatrist about what I did... He did manage to calm me down and I enjoyed life... I didn't smoke weed after that till December... But since January I have stopped doing that till now. (I don't plan on doing it again, lol)

Since March I have panic attacks and OCD with the fear of going insane, I am in therapy. My Therapist told me that it was a coincidence that I took drugs and develop OCD months later. My fear now is that this feeling comes back around October or I have hallucinations. I think that would be called backflash ???

Do you guys think I still suffer from LSD long term effects?
Did I even take LSD??
What do you guys think about this???
I know it was stupid but please don't judge me, it was a mistake I regret dearly.
Sorry if my English is bad, I am not a native speaker.
 
Hello Seth, welcome to the forum. I will try to make this as concise as possible.

Do you guys think I still suffer from LSD long term effects?
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No. You barely even felt it, if at all. It's not even remotely likely that you're suffering from long term effects from it.

Did I even take LSD??
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No one here can possibly answer that question for you, and I'm afraid it's against the forum rules for you to ask it.

What do you guys think about this???
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Two ideas:

1. Your therapist is right, it's completely coincidence.
2. Possibly you brought out an anxiety disorder in yourself by freaking out about it so much over the next few days. For the record, LSD only lasts about eight to twelve hours, there's no chance you could have kept hallucinating over the next few days.

I know it was stupid but please don't judge me, it was a mistake I regret dearly.
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You won't find people here who think that taking LSD in a healthy state of mind is stupid or a mistake, this is a psychedelic support forum where many people take LSD in moderate to high doses on a regular basis. Your situation is unfortunate, but I personally don't suspect the LSD did anything directly to cause it.

I hope you are able to get the help you need, but even if you are suffering as a result of taking LSD, this would only have occurred indirectly, and the only way to move beyond it now would simply be to work towards overcoming your anxiety and other symptoms, through therapy or whatever others means necessary.
 
Relax. It is absolutely impossible that your condition has anything to do with whatever drink you took a sip of a year ago. Doesn't matter if it were LSD or any other drug. It will never cause you to hallucinate, and you can't have a flashback since you've never actually tripped.

The things you are afraid of will not happen, so rest easy.
 
Looks like after reading online you've convinced yourself of having all those long term side effects, without actually tripping even once.

You'll be fine.

Work with your therapist if you need to - it's always useful to have compassionate person around that you can turn to during difficult times.
 
Sincerly i think that's just all in your head !
it's your anxiety / OCD what makes you have such ideas, cause there's almost no chance that those experiments with drugs will affect you the way you think.
relax, and above all treat your OCD.
 
Like has been said you didn't hallucinate, you wont flashback. I've had some very frightening trips and trips where there were so many things going on in my visual field I couldn't type and have never had a flashback you haven't and wont after your encounter.

You have created a cognitive dissonance - "I never took MDMA or any other drugs" & then I started to think about what I did... (I am pretty basic, I usually don't take drugs)

You then tried to marry that with the fact that not only do you take drugs such as Cannabis and whatever was in that bottle and the two created a conflict that due to your mental health problems that you have fixated on and exacerbating with your ongoing rumination and searching.

Long term effects GENERALLY come with longer term use, (not including allergic reactions, OD, Trauma and accidents) a one off is not going to create long lasting problems. The OCD an off shoot from anxiety was likely brewing in the back ground but your focus was on study/student life. Your fear from what you did at the party changed your focus on to LSD and the rest occurred naturally, (for want of a better word).

On a final note and I think if you are honest with yourself you know you know this:

"he told me that he had LSD in his bottle... Well, I took a sip."

You then ask:

Did I even take LSD??

If as you say you took a sip out of a bottle of LSD you would have tripped, and tripped HARD. Normally, it is in a dropper bottle and you take ONE DROP at a time. A SLIP would have been a massive dose and whether or not you left your dorm you would have been hallucinating and judging by your anxious nature you would have been having a horrific time.

I think in your highly aroused and anxious state you will have bent the things you were reading to suit your experience but part of you is aware that is what you have done. I'm not going to guess at what I think you took because I suspect you will fix on that and that substance would replace LSD and you'd be anxious about that.

Best advice I can can give is:

*If you have a God say a prayer of thanks that it wasn't LSD or as said you would have had a horrific time.
*Avoid ALL drugs for the time being you need to focus on developing good mental health and putting this episode behind you.
*Eat well, rest well, exercise well, and socialise.
*Stress reduction techniques such as meditation, yoga and mindfulness will help you keep stress and as a result your panic attacks and OCD will lessen.
*Stop reading up on the long term effects of LSD or <insert drug name here) and start reading up about anxiety disorders and methods to treat them such as distraction and cognitive behavioural therapy it will be much more productive.

Hope that you can take the answers you have been given. The guys on here are quite knowledgeable and worth listening to imho. Take care.
 
It's all in your head and completely self created. Sorry but LSD didn't destroy your life, that is what you did through excessive worrying. There isn't even a reason to be afraid of LSD 'hallucinations' (it didn't even make you truly hallucinate).

Think this is all in your head because of folklore and none of it is based on a real experience. Hell, LSD can legitimately make you smarter through its neuroplastic effects which is why so many business people and software programmers use it.

My suggestion would be to chill, get some good LSD and have an actual trip so that you can see how harmless it is and stop worrying.
 
You'll definitely be ok. If you had taken LSD or another strong hallucinagen, you would definitely know. The reports and anecdotes you have read about are incredibly rare and represent a miniscule fraction of humanities experiences with psychedelic substances.

It really is unhelpful to google yourself into an anxiety state. Some people call that cyberchondria. It's definitely a thing! I know, I did that for a long time. I would be prescribed a medication, do (poor) research on it, and do the same thing you are doing.

Just because a side-effect or what have you is possible, it doesn't mean it's likely you'll experience it. As an example, I have a friend who was worried that hydrocodone would give her serotonin syndrome due to her mixing it with her other medications. I looked it up and that's happened to like five people, ever. So, yes, some things are possible, however unlikely.

No more google-fu for you. You'll be fine. Work towards a healthy mental state, and I hope you get to feeling better!
 
Omg, thank you guys so much. :)
Reading all of this actually made me feel better... Over the last months I had a lot of fears, I have overcome all of them... The LSD thing was the only thing left.
I didn't meant to offend anybody, when I said that I know it was a mistake, I think it is perfectly fine to take LSD or orthers it just isn't for me.

I did make a lot of progress but my OCD keeps bringing this up... Now I actually have some opinions from people who have a lot of knowledge about this to calm me down.
 
No offense taken, friend. Glad we could help you find some peace of mind. :)
 
Yeah I absolutely concur, it's in your head. It sounds like you have problems with anxiety/obsessive/intrusive thoughts. Many people experience these things at various times (for example, my good friend died unexpectedly recently and now I have a hard time not imagining that my girlfriend got in a car accident when she doesn't get back to me, it really fucks me up sometimes). You seem to think that "drugs" are "bad" (no judgment here just saying, from your language used), and since you suspected that you took LSD, you got anxious and started looking it up (BAD IDEA ALWAYS, the Internet can freak you the fuck out if you're prone to anxiety), and decided you have negative long-term effects from it. In fact, you barely even felt the LSD, if at all. There's simply no way that what you're experiencing has anything to do with it. Just chill out, take some deep breaths, and quit worrying about what COULD happen, and pay attention to what IS happening. :) And that is that you're worrying yourself into a state where you would say that your life is destroyed. The only way out of that is by learning to control your thoughts. I'd definitely keep working with your therapist because obsessive thoughts certainly can be a huge problem in a person's life.
 
Lol it is true that LSD can case a number of long term effects but those effects don't happen chemically. I mean obviously the chemical of LSD alters the brain but it is more a matter of the psychological effects of the LSD experience than LSD chemically damaging to your brain to make you depressed or anxious.

If you didn't have an intense experience on LSD, there is no reason to think it would be the cause of any psychological problems you have now.
 
SethRech said:
Hey everybody, my name is Seth, I am 22 years old and an economics major.

Let's get ahead to my Problem: I never took MDMA or any other drugs. (well, I smoked Weed).
So last year, it was October the 1st, I smoked way too much pot and got way too drunk, later that night we went to a party and everything was cool. There was one dude there that was selling drugs and I kinda befriended him. After we talked for a while he told me that he had LSD in his bottle... Well, I took a sip.
Nothing special happened that night, I didn't see anything nor did I behave unusually. The only thing I know for sure is that I thought the lights were pretty and that I got a little bit tired, sat down and felt high. I was responsive and did not talk weird stuff. We went home and I felt great.

The next morning I woke up and also felt great... but then I started to think about what I did... (I am pretty basic, I usually don't take drugs)
After that, I got a pretty bad feeling and started googeling what that feeling could be... I looked up all kind of stuff about LSD and possible long term effects... I got really scared and was very anxious. I didn't leave my dorm for 4 days because I was scared that I might see things differently and get hallucinations. After the fourth day I went to the hospital and talked with a Psychiatrist about what I did... He did manage to calm me down and I enjoyed life... I didn't smoke weed after that till December... But since January I have stopped doing that till now. (I don't plan on doing it again, lol)

Since March I have panic attacks and OCD with the fear of going insane, I am in therapy. My Therapist told me that it was a coincidence that I took drugs and develop OCD months later. My fear now is that this feeling comes back around October or I have hallucinations. I think that would be called backflash ???

Do you guys think I still suffer from LSD long term effects?
Did I even take LSD??
What do you guys think about this???
I know it was stupid but please don't judge me, it was a mistake I regret dearly.
Sorry if my English is bad, I am not a native speaker.
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I'm not 100% sure but if I look at your story you are making yourself crazy and not the LSD. The mind is a powerful tool. What you believe becomes reality.
 
Oh gosh. I read that LSD can trigger schizophrenia... What is if this is happening or has started happening? Is it too late for it to begin now or is there still a chance that it triggered schizophrenia?
 
All the government websites spew absolute bullshit out their asses about LSD and other hallucinogens. Also, never a good idea to take a psychedelic if you have been drinking alcohol. Most of the time, alcohol just blocks out the effects almost completely and you won't trip. As for the pot, that definitely could be a source of your anxiety. Trust me, coming from a guy who actually did have a traumatic trip from LSD and wasn't normal for months, you're gonna be fine. Anxiety is a crazy crazy thing. Worrying on its own nearly sent me to the psych ward. I too have issues with OCD and thoughts controlling me.
 
SethRech said:
Oh gosh. I read that LSD can trigger schizophrenia... What is if this is happening or has started happening? Is it too late for it to begin now or is there still a chance that it triggered schizophrenia?
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Did you read my post? It's not like you take LSD and feel fine like and then suddenly later you develop schizophrenia. It's the TRIP that can trigger schizophrenia. In other words, you would have known right away that something was amiss.
 
SethRech said:
Oh gosh. I read that LSD can trigger schizophrenia... What is if this is happening or has started happening? Is it too late for it to begin now or is there still a chance that it triggered schizophrenia?
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This post speaks volumes to me. It seems your anxious mind set is seizing on any bit of negative information and amplifying it. Without having tripped you are not going to get any psychiatric or physical problems. I'll bet my house and pension that there has been an ongoing anxiety/hyper-aroused part of you that may or may not have been very noticeable. The LSD has given you a focal point for your, deranged thought process, (sorry can't think of a better word).

Stop reading anything to do with LSD or indeed any other drug and move on with your life - you got reassurance and still went looking for information to concur with your mistaken beliefs. I would advise that until you get your head/thoughts together to avoid all drugs and I include alcohol in that.

Government web-sites are not the place to be going for information on drugs, check out FRANK which lists Salvia as herbal ecstasy! That is just one of the very blatant mistakes/propaganda. You are on a site that contains all the knowledge you need and you cannot accept it!

Take care and focus on living well, put this down to experience and move on to bigger and better times. Good luck.
 
SethRech said:
Oh gosh. I read that LSD can trigger schizophrenia... What is if this is happening or has started happening? Is it too late for it to begin now or is there still a chance that it triggered schizophrenia?
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No. the above post ^ is spot on. Stop reading anything more about it, this is purely self inflicted at this point
 
After all the trees worth of paper I've eaten over the years, if I am not having issues, your "sips" off the bottle that didn't seem to do much and appears to have caused irreparable harm, is likely to be a coincidence. ;)

You will get through it and psychs may not be for you.
 
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