tonja
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my life has been so strange. my husband is trying to get sober (meth) and i am here for him but to go back in time 8 weeks my life has been a roller-coaster my husband left me and went to another womans place with her boyfriend but lied to me about where he was. i then find out and felt guilty because i believe part of it was my fault because the drugs have been destroying our life and someone called me an enabler so i read some articles that suggested i be hard on him and push him i did that but i think i pushed him back to drugs after 2 years clean what the hell was i doing?
so i fought to get him home and sober for 12 days he was gone doing god knows what. well he did confess that he slept with the woman and he came home and things were ok for a few weeks with some issues anonymous texts that was hard to deal with. i was doing good with the other woman because i felt some responsibility it got me through then almost 2 weeks ago my husband said he needed to help a friend in dire need and i had the worst gut feeling( it happens a lot) and we got into an argument and then he got really sick to his stomach i thought maybe withdrawls but that made no sense he had detoxed before without this issue.
well my gut got the best of me when he was sick and i looked into his phone omg he was texting a woman and he told her a whopper of a story how he was divorced for a while and had his own place oh fuck was i pissed off all hell broke loose and after fighting and arguing with me still fighting for him in every sense the dam cops call well to find out after i calmed down a detective and wants info i might have. what the hell was he thinking i would never do that to my husband even though i am so tired of the drugs i could not but i did tell my husband about the detective and i think it scared him well he has been sober a very short time and today i received a text message asking me if i knew where he was?
well i checked her place he was there and when he came out he was upset he went home and i finished working then came home and he told me he did nothing wrong and i believe that.(did i mention that i have talked to the woman and she says nothing is going on)well he tells me he loves me and i am his wife that she is a friend and i ask why did you lie in the beginging and he says the drugs and he was not sure what he wanted because he thought i was cheating. i gut does not tell me i have an issue except i think he should be honest with meand he did agree what he did was wrong.
when my husband is sober he is the greatest when he is on drugs it is hard emotionally and not to mention i keep having this dream the phone rings and i think he is dead it is a messed up only a dream. well the detective keeps calling and the message keep coming the messages only inform me like they are trying to help. i wonder now is it the detective? my husband is sleeping now and sober and says he only wants me but the message is taunting me. he is my husband and i love him very much but i need support....
so i fought to get him home and sober for 12 days he was gone doing god knows what. well he did confess that he slept with the woman and he came home and things were ok for a few weeks with some issues anonymous texts that was hard to deal with. i was doing good with the other woman because i felt some responsibility it got me through then almost 2 weeks ago my husband said he needed to help a friend in dire need and i had the worst gut feeling( it happens a lot) and we got into an argument and then he got really sick to his stomach i thought maybe withdrawls but that made no sense he had detoxed before without this issue.
well my gut got the best of me when he was sick and i looked into his phone omg he was texting a woman and he told her a whopper of a story how he was divorced for a while and had his own place oh fuck was i pissed off all hell broke loose and after fighting and arguing with me still fighting for him in every sense the dam cops call well to find out after i calmed down a detective and wants info i might have. what the hell was he thinking i would never do that to my husband even though i am so tired of the drugs i could not but i did tell my husband about the detective and i think it scared him well he has been sober a very short time and today i received a text message asking me if i knew where he was?
well i checked her place he was there and when he came out he was upset he went home and i finished working then came home and he told me he did nothing wrong and i believe that.(did i mention that i have talked to the woman and she says nothing is going on)well he tells me he loves me and i am his wife that she is a friend and i ask why did you lie in the beginging and he says the drugs and he was not sure what he wanted because he thought i was cheating. i gut does not tell me i have an issue except i think he should be honest with meand he did agree what he did was wrong.
when my husband is sober he is the greatest when he is on drugs it is hard emotionally and not to mention i keep having this dream the phone rings and i think he is dead it is a messed up only a dream. well the detective keeps calling and the message keep coming the messages only inform me like they are trying to help. i wonder now is it the detective? my husband is sleeping now and sober and says he only wants me but the message is taunting me. he is my husband and i love him very much but i need support....
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