Hello.
Long story short I have had 2 acute pancreatitis attacks due to past drinking, I now do not drink and do not intent to even though the urge is high and not being able to is very depressing since I am in my 20s still.
I really cannot drink again because if I do I could end up with chronic pancreatitis which I am not willing to risk, I would end up on pain medication all my life and still be in severe pain.
Everyone wants to relax now and again, have the odd glass of wine after a hard weeks work but I cannot do this now for the rest of my life. It is also very depressing seeing all my friends social lubricate themselves and do social things around alcohol depending on the time of year. For example it's festival period now, people going Glastonbury, Tomorrowland etc etc. Then the Christmas festive period for example.. everyone out drinking having fun, even around the Christmas table people will be drinking baileys, champagne and having a good time.
I am very experienced with benzos and I find relief in them for my anxiety and my doctor knows all about this and I use them in emergencies but they just help my anxiety, I miss the euphoric music appreciation I get from alcohol. Benzos are not what I am looking for, they help me in times of need and I use them for that and not recreationally.
Now my question is do you think it is possible to use opioids in place of alcohol and really control yourself, I have tried Codeine and Tramadol many of times and really did not feel it was worth it, the maximum dosages I took were probably 180mg Codeine, 150mg Tramadol on separate occasions. Light buzz but nothing like the music appreciation, social lubrication and intoxication of alcohol.
I just want to have a giggly time now and again, unwind now and again, is it really THAT much easier to become addicted to opioids over alcohol? Is it really IMPOSSIBLE to control?
I have 10 x 10mg Oxycodone Hydrochloride capsules which have been in the cupboard for weeks now, they are there I could take or leave them but the urge to try them is there.. I want to unwind, listen to some music and have a relaxing night.
Maybe I have gone to the extremes from trying Codeine/Tramadol to having some Oxycodone IR, I wanted to try Hydrocodone as it's maybe more in between codeine and oxy in strength but was impossible to find.
I have been thinking for the past few hours of trying 5mg mixed in a drink and to just sip it.... start real low... just chill out and listen to some music, I don't want to get plastered.
I know the next option from alcohol would be weed without causing too much trouble but it gives me huge anxiety and is not sociable at all for me, maybe a little if I take it with some heavy benzos but I do not want to abuse benzos and passed out.
One of my favorite drugs to socialize is 4-FA after being told not to ever drink alcohol again, I love the stuff but I think amphetamines and this type of drug will be way more damaging to the body and possibly my pancreas compared to opioids, this is going more off topic though. I also cannot imagine taking 4-FA into my old age and those types of drugs... and it will inevitably be very hard to come hold of eventually anyway.
Once again my question is do you think it's at all possible to control opioid use, have I gone too extreme with getting my hands on Oxy (not yet tried it), should I go for a less intense opioid.
I have a feeling I already know the answers I am going to recieve, yes I will get addicted easily, and with my past alcohol abuse it's even more likely, maybe I should be asking this question instead:
- Has anyone else had experience with being able to control opioids themselves, just stick to recreational use?
- If I try Oxycodone will normal life never feel the same again, will normal life be a bore even from taking it a few times, maybe once a month?
I know totally sober life would be the best option, but come on im in my 20s and I cannot imagine being totally sober all my life until I die, I want to be intoxicated now and again... sorry for rambling this was suppose to be a short post.
I am looking forward to your replies and I hope this hasn't turned out to be a big wall of text (which im worried it has)
Thanks everyone,
J
Long story short I have had 2 acute pancreatitis attacks due to past drinking, I now do not drink and do not intent to even though the urge is high and not being able to is very depressing since I am in my 20s still.
I really cannot drink again because if I do I could end up with chronic pancreatitis which I am not willing to risk, I would end up on pain medication all my life and still be in severe pain.
Everyone wants to relax now and again, have the odd glass of wine after a hard weeks work but I cannot do this now for the rest of my life. It is also very depressing seeing all my friends social lubricate themselves and do social things around alcohol depending on the time of year. For example it's festival period now, people going Glastonbury, Tomorrowland etc etc. Then the Christmas festive period for example.. everyone out drinking having fun, even around the Christmas table people will be drinking baileys, champagne and having a good time.
I am very experienced with benzos and I find relief in them for my anxiety and my doctor knows all about this and I use them in emergencies but they just help my anxiety, I miss the euphoric music appreciation I get from alcohol. Benzos are not what I am looking for, they help me in times of need and I use them for that and not recreationally.
Now my question is do you think it is possible to use opioids in place of alcohol and really control yourself, I have tried Codeine and Tramadol many of times and really did not feel it was worth it, the maximum dosages I took were probably 180mg Codeine, 150mg Tramadol on separate occasions. Light buzz but nothing like the music appreciation, social lubrication and intoxication of alcohol.
I just want to have a giggly time now and again, unwind now and again, is it really THAT much easier to become addicted to opioids over alcohol? Is it really IMPOSSIBLE to control?
I have 10 x 10mg Oxycodone Hydrochloride capsules which have been in the cupboard for weeks now, they are there I could take or leave them but the urge to try them is there.. I want to unwind, listen to some music and have a relaxing night.
Maybe I have gone to the extremes from trying Codeine/Tramadol to having some Oxycodone IR, I wanted to try Hydrocodone as it's maybe more in between codeine and oxy in strength but was impossible to find.
I have been thinking for the past few hours of trying 5mg mixed in a drink and to just sip it.... start real low... just chill out and listen to some music, I don't want to get plastered.
I know the next option from alcohol would be weed without causing too much trouble but it gives me huge anxiety and is not sociable at all for me, maybe a little if I take it with some heavy benzos but I do not want to abuse benzos and passed out.
One of my favorite drugs to socialize is 4-FA after being told not to ever drink alcohol again, I love the stuff but I think amphetamines and this type of drug will be way more damaging to the body and possibly my pancreas compared to opioids, this is going more off topic though. I also cannot imagine taking 4-FA into my old age and those types of drugs... and it will inevitably be very hard to come hold of eventually anyway.
Once again my question is do you think it's at all possible to control opioid use, have I gone too extreme with getting my hands on Oxy (not yet tried it), should I go for a less intense opioid.
I have a feeling I already know the answers I am going to recieve, yes I will get addicted easily, and with my past alcohol abuse it's even more likely, maybe I should be asking this question instead:
- Has anyone else had experience with being able to control opioids themselves, just stick to recreational use?
- If I try Oxycodone will normal life never feel the same again, will normal life be a bore even from taking it a few times, maybe once a month?
I know totally sober life would be the best option, but come on im in my 20s and I cannot imagine being totally sober all my life until I die, I want to be intoxicated now and again... sorry for rambling this was suppose to be a short post.
I am looking forward to your replies and I hope this hasn't turned out to be a big wall of text (which im worried it has)
Thanks everyone,
J