pintopowered
Greenlighter
- Joined
- May 28, 2018
- Messages
- 9
Hi Guys, new member here, from the great cousin fucking' state of PA. I'm an addict, and I'm kinda at the end of my ropes, and don't have anyone to turn to, so I'm here seeking advice. Drug of choice is Oxys'. Started approximately a year ago, I had gone through dental surgery, and received a prescription from my oral surgeon. Low dose obviously, 5/325 (MMM tylenol). As i'm sure most of you know, the feeling was awesssssome. I had smoked plenty of tree in my younger years, and drank my liver out so much that when I turned 21 I didn't even have a desire to buy it or go to the bar haha. After I finished my prescription, a friend that I had lost touch with years ago came back into the picture, sure enough he had a hookup for these magical pills that make me so happy, focused and at the time what I considered a better person. It started at 10MG, once a day, every week the dose would go up more, but I only ever did it once a day, orally. Here we are a year later, and I want to cry to just telling the group this...but I'm currently at 230MG, in one shot. For the first time in my addiction, I doubled my dose several times last week. I was having a shitty, miserable day, and I know that's not an excuse, but I did it. Since then, I feel very weird, like my mind wonders off completely, like I can't focus on anything..... I don't know whats wrong all of a sudden but I'm terrified. I know I have a problem, there where a few times where I tried to quit cold turkey, and I couldn't do it. I bailed ship 2-3 days in every time. I need to ween myself off this bullshit once and for all. I'm married to a beautiful wife that knows whats going on after I confessed, she accepted it and is by my side to help. I also have 2 beautiful little girls, that love me very much and should have been my entire reason for living in the first place, not this. I have so many questions, and really nobody to turn to, I'm hoping I came to the right group, without judgement, I know I'm a fuck up, I just need help.