itsonlyme123
Bluelighter
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- Dec 2, 2014
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don't be a bitch^
That made tea come out of my nose.
don't be a bitch^
sigh...
got engaged during the winter been together going on 2 years, felt my gut kick in a couple weeks ago but ignored it. she made up some story about going to her friends out of town. but i knew she's been texting some guy that was just a friend supposedly messages would pop up occasionally recently. got the guys address and drove there after work and of course she was there at 10 oclock at night staying there.
I honestly want to kill her, strangle the life out of her as i watch. I took a better job selling cars, Became a father to a child that isnt mine loved that child just as much as i did her. and this is how i get repayed. I honestly dont think i'll be able to let another female in close enough, ive had trust issues since i was a child but been able to curb them to the side and ignore the feelings and use rational thought. But this is the last straw i think.
How can someone do that to someone they supposedly want to marry, love, see as the father of their child. we've had this talk to if you want someone else just say the word and we'll end things never thought it would actually happen or the slut would cheat on me. she knew that was the one thing i could not deal with that would send me into a relapse and been clean 3 years and bam killed a fifth of vodka last night and got some dope ate some blood pressure pills and fell asleep hoping to never wake up. Ive left the house packed my shit, cancelled the utilities and all other bills.
move on ,she will never change.i have been married to a liar and a cheat for 21 years.its no fun.
Yeah, it could be cathartic to hash it all out once you feel like you can handle it. Wait 'til you cool off though or you're going to feel compelled to seize the opportunity to unleash on her and it's not going to be productive. Like I mentioned before, you might find that she had some very human reasons for sabotaging your engagement, and giving her a chance to reveal those to you might bring you some peace. I know that, for now anyway, it's probably easier to hate her for what she's done, and she can't really blame you for feeling that way... but in the long run, you might feel like a 'bigger man' for attempting to understand what she might be going through.it might be more beneficial to YOU if you talk it through with her at some point though