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Stimulants I've been an idiot. What can save me?

LearntYoung

LearntYoung

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I've taken 70% amphetamine orally 2 days ago and I'm still awake now. It's almost 8 A.M., the first signs of sleep deprivation are clearly appearing and in a few hours my date will be arriving. I have been eating well, but I'm just really in doubt about what's wise... I really like this girl, she took an off-day from work to be able to see me, so I can't say no now. That'll ruin it. My thought is to fix the problems I caused with more drugs... But then again... That's idiotic. I never take speed orally and now I remember why... FUCK!

(My solution would be: Etizolam against the symptoms + More speed to stay awake with the etizolam.)
 
LearntYoung said:
I've taken 70% amphetamine orally 2 days ago and I'm still awake now. It's almost 8 A.M., the first signs of sleep deprivation are clearly appearing and in a few hours my date will be arriving. I have been eating well, but I'm just really in doubt about what's wise... I really like this girl, she took an off-day from work to be able to see me, so I can't say no now. That'll ruin it. My thought is to fix the problems I caused with more drugs... But then again... That's idiotic. I never take speed orally and now I remember why... FUCK!

(My solution would be: Etizolam against the symptoms + More speed to stay awake with the etizolam.)
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In my experience Etizolam will help a bit. It's not overly sedating to where I would fall asleep if i take a milligram or so after a speed binge. i'd steer clear of more speed unless this person doesn't care if you're acting a bit loopy. I know i would be anyway after being awake on speed for a couple of days.
 
I feel for you bro, I've been in this situation before I couldn't stop redosing lines of meth next thing I know 2 days go bye I haven't slept and I looked like a tweaker lol mind you the girl I was supposed to see that night hates drugs and has never tried anything outside of alcohol, needless to say I cancelled on her and she was definitely looking forward to it, I ruined a good thing over drugs. Sigh addiction can be so rough. Anyways I wouldn't do any more amps if I was you take the etizolam and try to clean up your appearance. You can pull it off just be confident good luck!
 
She does know I do drugs, but I don't think she expects me to show up sleep deprived in the middle of the week XD
 
Meh, just took etizolam and a tiny line of speed. I can't risk falling asleep before she's here and I can't last an entire date with a beautiful girl who I potentially could be falling in love with, while being distracted by all that's moving in the corners of my eyes. I'm feeling pretty mellow now. That's good.
 
LearntYoung said:
She does know I do drugs, but I don't think she expects me to show up sleep deprived in the middle of the week XD
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Lol I don't blame her if you can get those benzos in you and clean up your appearance to look at least semi normal you can probably pull this off. Use lotion on your face it helps alot especially underneath your eyes
 
In your position, I would go with the take more drugs route... not that I'd recommend that you do the same. It's certainly not good for your health.

Do you get weird on the third day of no sleep? I find that, on the rare occasions I've gone two night without sleep, amphetamine keeps me pretty straight-headed. Really, on Vyvanse I can feel totally normal at that point.

My best advice would be, if you DO decide to take more speed... just make sure you stop in time to actually go to bed tonight. If that means you start fading out a bit early in the night, just tell the girl you're tired.
 
I have experience with tricky situations like this, christmas dinner with the whole family while completely tweaking. But this feels different... Feels like I have so much to lose...
Weird, almost as if I'm in love with her already, but I've only met her once before...

@ovo: This is my guardian angel for emergency facial reconstruction.
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You may think you're "perfectly normal" but really are far from it, psychosis is scary because you don't know you're psychotic you feel "perfectly normal" but act like a trainwreck
 
Dude I need to try that stuff! It looks like it will work much better then my generic dollar store lotion lol. I'm really hoping all goes well with this girl since you seem happy. Make sure to update tomorrow on how it all goes
 
titan7 said:
You may think you're "perfectly normal" but really are far from it, psychosis is scary because you don't know you're psychotic you feel "perfectly normal" but act like a trainwreck
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Believe me, I've been on the edge of psychosis once... A, well, let's call him a friend, decided that it was a good idea to come over one evening, because he was still in a party mood from the day before. I was already wrecked by the day before and the one before that. He knew I'd been struggling with addiction when I was younger, but he came to my home and we got the speed on the table and started doing more. I know that I can't say no to speed when it's offered, I think it's common sense to know that an addict will always have that, but he denied knowing that. He assumed that I'd be clear when I was going over my limit. I have even had the strength to say: "Dude, no more man, we already have had a shitload and the stuff I get is a lot more pure than what you get from your average dealer." He took more anyway and then put the mirror in front of my nose again. Long story short. It never ended and when I felt uncomfortable with his presence, he said I probably needed some fresh air. I just walked with him and the idiot decided that it wouldn't be scary as hell to walk through a pitchblack forrest when you're hallucinating and becoming paranoid... At that point, I felt it, just a tiny push more and I would've snapped. So I left. Alone in the dark. He was even at that point completely ignorant about what the problem could have been. Can a person actually be that stupid and dense?
 
ovo1024 said:
Dude I need to try that stuff! It looks like it will work much better then my generic dollar store lotion lol. I'm really hoping all goes well with this girl since you seem happy. Make sure to update tomorrow on how it all goes
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It's heavenly, but don't rub it under your eyes if you wear contacts. After 5~15 minutes it starts irritating the material or something like that. It's not really painful, but really annoying and you'll look like you're crying. Had that on the train once and an old lady asked me if all was alright 8)
 
LearntYoung said:
Feels like I have so much to lose...
Weird, almost as if I'm in love with her already, but I've only met her once before...
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That sentence gave me a visceral reaction. We are in a VERY similar situation my friend. I used to have a crush on this girl that use to work at my gym literally 10 years ago. Little did ?I know, she had a big crush on me during the same time, but we were both too shy to act on it. Now TEN years later, we start talking through Tinder, of all places. We set up a first date, and sadly I had to cancel last minute due to work and I could tell she was really dissapointed. I got another shot at it and number one, she looked absolutely gorgeous. If you saw her walking down the street you would swear she was the porn star Sophia Santi. We had an amazing first date and I had chemistry with this girl like I've never felt before. We went back to her place.....well I'll leave that part there. Anyway, so the second date comes around. I could swear that she felt that same connection I had with her. It sounds crazy but I honestly felt like I loved this girl. So what does my STUPID FUCKIN ASS decide to do after being months clean off everything? I pick up 10 xanax.

I think I ate about 6 xanax bars throughout the night and could barely keep my eyes open and was probably making an ass of myself. She then started inquiring from friends years back that, "oh yeah, that kid does drugs and is into some dangerous and shady shit, stay away." She broke it off with me after only 2 dates and let me tell you, it hurt more than girl that I've had to leave or been broken up with when we've went out for years. Like Sonny from Bronx Tale say's, "you only get 3 great ones in this life." My first ex was one, but shes ding bat crazy, and this girl, oh man, this girl was definitely the second.


This of course gave me the rationalization of poor me and started my gorilla sized benzo habit I have to this day, when all this started in February I believe.

Damn, just hearing you say that brought up so many feels.


Feels bad man :(

If I were you, and you truly care about this girl, come up with an excuse to not see her. Any typical lie will due. Stuck at work. Car accident. Etc. If you truly have feelings for her, don't fuck up what might become something beautiful by doing more speed and acting like a lunatic, or eating some benzos to deal with the crash because you're going to feel like shit no matter what. Just call it off and recover for another day. Learn from my mistake. Please. I'm begging you. The girl I was talking about literally gave me butterflies in my stomach when I use to think about her and I am in my early 30's. Please don't fuck this up if you care about her. :*(
 
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Try to refrain from compulsively staring out the window at the tree line where you were sure you had just saw the barrel of a sniper rifle. Oh and don't check the ceiling tiles for fiber optic camera's and/or begin disassembling household electronics in search of the eavesdropping equipment that the DEA has installed. While watching television there aren't any secret messages planted in Shrek 2 for you to decode the coming zombie apocalypse.

These are just a few suggestions. I'm sure there's more.
 
pinpoint said:
Try to refrain from compulsively staring out the window at the tree line where you were sure you had just saw the barrel of a sniper rifle. Oh and don't check the ceiling tiles for fiber optic camera's and/or begin disassembling household electronics in search of the eavesdropping equipment that the DEA has installed. While watching television there aren't any secret messages planted in Shrek 2 for you to decode the coming zombie apocalypse.

These are just a few suggestions. I'm sure there's more.
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LOL pp ur my favorite poster
 
Okay, so, they day is over and I've come with good news and bad news. The date was amazing, but I have learned the hard way that cooking whilst talking dreaming off in a girl's eyes are not meant to go together. I knocked over an entire pan...
+The good news is that my body shomehow managed to turn off all the sleep deprivation effects. No visual effects, no fatigue etc.
-The bad news is that it is highly likely that I'm falling in love. I never fall in love. It scares me.
 
eat some food drink some water brush your teeth get in bed stay in bed.
 
Hey I'm happy it all went well OP and with your condition you were in if falling in love was the only bad part than I think you did pretty good today :D
 
Glad it worked out OP. See her so ER next time to make sure you weren't just high before you agree to marriage.
 
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