Space__Kitten
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Ok so it sounds bogus to get addicted to kratom, I took it on and off for 5 years with no problems and thought you couldn't get addicted to it. Then I found a cheap vender and started taking it every night, then after a couple months twice and by six months 3+ times a day. Started with about 4-5g a day to where I take about 50-100g+ a day now. I still didn't think I was addicted until I tried to stop. I wanted to lower my dose because it's been getting spendy and a few times at work I took too much by accident and was shaking and it doesn't even feel as good anymore but I haven't been able to. I start getting cold sweats, hot flashes, chills and my legs cramp hurt and won't stop moving. Worst feeling is the cold sweats. It's so wierd I feel it must be in my head.
FedEx messed up this week and I won't get my shipment until Tuesday and last couple days were my first days without any in about a year and I was miserable and took Imodium and it went away for the most part. I still feel icky but not horrible, my legs are sore like after you work out back hurts a bit and I'm fatigued but that's about it.
I don't know I just don't trust this. I'm glad I feel ok but like is it the Imodium or is it plasibo effect? Also like when I feel crappy going off kratom am I just not used to being sober? I'm worried if I go off kratom I'll feel crappy forever and it's not kratom withdrawl and it just sucks and normal body aches just hurt more than I remember. I think that maybe I can't handle normal pain from like muscle aches and pains idk.
Also please no hate, I spend way too much on this stuff. I am so anxious waiting for my shipment on Tuesday, I'm hoping with these 3 days off of it my tolerance might go down a bit so I don't have to take 35 pills a dose to feel ok. I'm worried about going to work tomorrow. I'm worried any minute the Imodium and ibuprofen will stop working. I feel so dumb it's just kratom it's not even a real drug in my opinion. I just felt it was like a good stress reliever and kept me off things like alcohol or experimenting with harder drugs cause I get bored but I don't want to do that anymore. I never got addicted to anything else though I was always careful. so it sounds bogus to get addicted to kratom, I took it on and off for 5 years with no problems and thought you couldn't get addicted to it. Then I found a cheap vender and started taking it every night, then after a couple months twice and by six months 3+ times a day. Started with about 4-5g a day to where I take about 50-100g+ a day now. I still didn't think I was addicted until I tried to stop. I wanted to lower my dose because it's been getting spendy and a few times at work I took too much by accident and was shaking and it doesn't even feel as good anymore but I haven't been able to. I start getting cold sweats, hot flashes, chills and my legs cramp hurt and won't stop moving. Worst feeling is the cold sweats. It's so wierd I feel it must be in my head.
FedEx messed up this week and I won't get my shipment until Tuesday and last couple days were my first days without any in about a year and I was miserable and took Imodium and it went away for the most part. I still feel icky but not horrible, my legs are sore like after you work out back hurts a bit and I'm fatigued but that's about it.
I don't know I just don't trust this. I'm glad I feel ok but like is it the Imodium or is it plasibo effect? Also like when I feel crappy going off kratom am I just not used to being sober? I'm worried if I go off kratom I'll feel crappy forever and it's not kratom withdrawl and it just sucks and normal body aches just hurt more than I remember. I think that maybe I can't handle normal pain from like muscle aches and pains idk.
Also please no hate, I spend way too much on this stuff. I am so anxious waiting for my shipment on Tuesday, I'm hoping with these 3 days off of it my tolerance might go down a bit so I don't have to take 35 pills a dose to feel ok. I'm worried about going to work tomorrow. I'm worried any minute the Imodium and ibuprofen will stop working. I feel so dumb it's just kratom it's not even a real drug in my opinion. I just felt it was like a good stress reliever and kept me off things like alcohol or experimenting with harder drugs cause I get bored and tried tons but I don't want to do that anymore plus I been on probation (not for drugs though I still could get tested) I never got addicted to anything else though I was always careful. I wasn't with this cause I thought it was impossible.
FedEx messed up this week and I won't get my shipment until Tuesday and last couple days were my first days without any in about a year and I was miserable and took Imodium and it went away for the most part. I still feel icky but not horrible, my legs are sore like after you work out back hurts a bit and I'm fatigued but that's about it.
I don't know I just don't trust this. I'm glad I feel ok but like is it the Imodium or is it plasibo effect? Also like when I feel crappy going off kratom am I just not used to being sober? I'm worried if I go off kratom I'll feel crappy forever and it's not kratom withdrawl and it just sucks and normal body aches just hurt more than I remember. I think that maybe I can't handle normal pain from like muscle aches and pains idk.
Also please no hate, I spend way too much on this stuff. I am so anxious waiting for my shipment on Tuesday, I'm hoping with these 3 days off of it my tolerance might go down a bit so I don't have to take 35 pills a dose to feel ok. I'm worried about going to work tomorrow. I'm worried any minute the Imodium and ibuprofen will stop working. I feel so dumb it's just kratom it's not even a real drug in my opinion. I just felt it was like a good stress reliever and kept me off things like alcohol or experimenting with harder drugs cause I get bored but I don't want to do that anymore. I never got addicted to anything else though I was always careful. so it sounds bogus to get addicted to kratom, I took it on and off for 5 years with no problems and thought you couldn't get addicted to it. Then I found a cheap vender and started taking it every night, then after a couple months twice and by six months 3+ times a day. Started with about 4-5g a day to where I take about 50-100g+ a day now. I still didn't think I was addicted until I tried to stop. I wanted to lower my dose because it's been getting spendy and a few times at work I took too much by accident and was shaking and it doesn't even feel as good anymore but I haven't been able to. I start getting cold sweats, hot flashes, chills and my legs cramp hurt and won't stop moving. Worst feeling is the cold sweats. It's so wierd I feel it must be in my head.
FedEx messed up this week and I won't get my shipment until Tuesday and last couple days were my first days without any in about a year and I was miserable and took Imodium and it went away for the most part. I still feel icky but not horrible, my legs are sore like after you work out back hurts a bit and I'm fatigued but that's about it.
I don't know I just don't trust this. I'm glad I feel ok but like is it the Imodium or is it plasibo effect? Also like when I feel crappy going off kratom am I just not used to being sober? I'm worried if I go off kratom I'll feel crappy forever and it's not kratom withdrawl and it just sucks and normal body aches just hurt more than I remember. I think that maybe I can't handle normal pain from like muscle aches and pains idk.
Also please no hate, I spend way too much on this stuff. I am so anxious waiting for my shipment on Tuesday, I'm hoping with these 3 days off of it my tolerance might go down a bit so I don't have to take 35 pills a dose to feel ok. I'm worried about going to work tomorrow. I'm worried any minute the Imodium and ibuprofen will stop working. I feel so dumb it's just kratom it's not even a real drug in my opinion. I just felt it was like a good stress reliever and kept me off things like alcohol or experimenting with harder drugs cause I get bored and tried tons but I don't want to do that anymore plus I been on probation (not for drugs though I still could get tested) I never got addicted to anything else though I was always careful. I wasn't with this cause I thought it was impossible.