Amebix said:
Okay fine, ill reword: Im upset when someone says you choose to be gay. Its just not true. Your right, it is intolerant of me to get upset when someone is asking a question without regarding their intentions, i apologize. Im sorry you feel attacked, but the places this question leads to are emotionally charged.
I'm openly and thoroughly gay at the moment, for me it was a choice. I started out straight because that's how I was raised as a christian boy and during high school I came to the conclusion that I was bisexual thru an increasing interest in the idea that I didn't want to limit the people I could emotional investment myself in to 50% of the people I associate with. Following the emotional attractions to other males, I developed an appreciation for their beauty as well.
As I got more accustomed to my newfound orientation, I found myself acting a lot different without overtly trying, mainly I started displaying some effeminate qualities and carried myself differently.
Then thanks to a favorite teacher and mentor of mine, I began to evaluate the reasoning behind my behaviors and attractions. With no interference from him, I came to the conclusion that I find a great deal of comfort in the some of the mores of the homosexual culture, specifically the blurred lines in between gender roles.
At that point I decided I possessed qualities (more like mental attributes) of both man and woman, I wanted to protect and comfort my prospective lover as the man traditionally does and in return receive the same, while at the same time I wanted to show no reservation for the emotions I felt and express my love in ways seen as non-masculine.
I found gay and bisexual males (at least the males I surrounded myself with) to be the best fit for me emotionally and, due to my nature, sexually. There's much more to be said about that, but maybe another time
As a final comment, while I do believe homosexuality was a choice in myself, this might not-- hell it probably isnt true in all people. I really don't know and have read numerous conflicting reports on the subject. I do however believe that a large part of an alternative orientation is the open-mindedness to accept yourself for who you are or might be, which you could be born with or it could be taught to you... Alas, nature vs. nurture is a different thread 8(