i've been there i pretty much lost my family with my ex girl, job and the majority of my family and it wasnt even because of drugs or alcohol but my own anxiety issues got the best of me
i visited a dark place of my mind i never thought i would see and it wasnt pretty
i had a day i will never forget and well....im here replying not sure...how im still here but i believe it wasnt my turn yet
like they say you dont see the real world until you hit rock bottom and im glad i did
helped me see the things i needed to fix and a yr into im still learning but i am in a damn better place
only advice i can give is, as hard as it sounds... but find your happy place and build a foundation around that we all have somewhere but all you have to do is look
i finally opened up myself to my sister and went to psycho therapy and its working without any drugs or medication
GL speed king