yeah so I still haven't smoked weed in these months, actually I did once and it made me happy with my first decision and continued not smoking, I'm on day 7 of tramadol withdrawal I cold turkey'ed from that 1300mg-1500mg habbit, I can't taper, I tried over the years, as fast I got to 500mg,that fast I got back to 800mg then 1000mg and so on. I used the benzos to protect me in the last months, now I regret it because I may be dependent on them, didn't take any for 2 days max but I got on lyrica, some weird ass shit, that lyrica is I swear. maybe I will have to taper the benzos idk yet since I didn't have a benzo withdrawal ever, I am really done with the opioids, now that I think of the feeling of tramadol I want to vomit, I guess I was depressed and I just covered it with it. I don't even know if to taper with clonazepam or diazepam, something that's less amnesic, although I injected intravenously 100mg diazepam and it felt relaxing, I don't know if I want to stretch it out, 3 months isn't that big of a habit (I hope so) of benzos. I
I blew a vein because I got a scar under the "point" on my arm but fuck it I don't really care, got more left or I hope so, got two major trackmarks on the other hand too, but no scar, and they start to heal with the creaams and all,but considering that I haven't IV'ed for a long time nothing and I injected in the same veins I used to, I think that I'm good, anyway I'm aplying some creams and similar shit to make the track marks go away faster, but I hope so I won't remain with the scar, actually the scar would be ok if the track mark dissapears, I'll say in the summer that it's a scar from childhood lol, it's been a long ride peeps, had a seizure broke my phone, got hit by a car on alpraz and clonaz, I owe some money but I get payed in a few days.
I quit that banking data analyst job, they were really sad about it because I learn about anything fast and I knew lots of activities, I had to teach someone one of the main ones that I only I knew and there were a couple more that only I was being taught but I just passed them to another one. who knows what's going to come, let's hope this time it's for good, I've been in withdrawal more times than my age and always said that this is the last time, I had 3 boxes of 200mg ones in my drawers but threw them away, the whole county is out of tramadol, no pharmacies have it beside myself, because I stacked lots of them before the "drought" came, they may even got unlisted but that wouldn't be a problem for me, I grew up in pharmacies and know their in and outs so yeah. I try to pass time by learning on pluralsight and writing, but with this lyrica shit I barely can do it, so I think I'm gonna ditch it or return it. all the pharmacists in this town know me and I've been living here just for one year........ in my hometown and other town, the same. I'm the tramadol guy, I just open the door and they already say "still no if you don't have a script",
I did a test as an .Net intern and I'm waiting for a response to proceed with two more interviews, it's so good to have this month for me, to withdraw at home, I'm still alone and I don't mean by relationships, but I made a couple of non-using friends and a chick that uses but I told her that if your friendship is gonna reside 80% on drug use and drug talk I'm not interested.
ok the rant is over, One Love
-Morpheuspapaverus
I blew a vein because I got a scar under the "point" on my arm but fuck it I don't really care, got more left or I hope so, got two major trackmarks on the other hand too, but no scar, and they start to heal with the creaams and all,but considering that I haven't IV'ed for a long time nothing and I injected in the same veins I used to, I think that I'm good, anyway I'm aplying some creams and similar shit to make the track marks go away faster, but I hope so I won't remain with the scar, actually the scar would be ok if the track mark dissapears, I'll say in the summer that it's a scar from childhood lol, it's been a long ride peeps, had a seizure broke my phone, got hit by a car on alpraz and clonaz, I owe some money but I get payed in a few days.
I quit that banking data analyst job, they were really sad about it because I learn about anything fast and I knew lots of activities, I had to teach someone one of the main ones that I only I knew and there were a couple more that only I was being taught but I just passed them to another one. who knows what's going to come, let's hope this time it's for good, I've been in withdrawal more times than my age and always said that this is the last time, I had 3 boxes of 200mg ones in my drawers but threw them away, the whole county is out of tramadol, no pharmacies have it beside myself, because I stacked lots of them before the "drought" came, they may even got unlisted but that wouldn't be a problem for me, I grew up in pharmacies and know their in and outs so yeah. I try to pass time by learning on pluralsight and writing, but with this lyrica shit I barely can do it, so I think I'm gonna ditch it or return it. all the pharmacists in this town know me and I've been living here just for one year........ in my hometown and other town, the same. I'm the tramadol guy, I just open the door and they already say "still no if you don't have a script",
I did a test as an .Net intern and I'm waiting for a response to proceed with two more interviews, it's so good to have this month for me, to withdraw at home, I'm still alone and I don't mean by relationships, but I made a couple of non-using friends and a chick that uses but I told her that if your friendship is gonna reside 80% on drug use and drug talk I'm not interested.
ok the rant is over, One Love
-Morpheuspapaverus