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I've been sober for 76 days from opioids...
I was sober from alcohol for nearly 10 days, I'm fucked up now.
Now I've convinced myself I'm going to cop some H tomorrow because I'm drunk. God give me strength to avoid it. I nearly died twice ~3 months ago. Seriously fuck me.
I'm begging I wake up tomorrow sober and forget this drive to relapse ever happened. Wishful thinking.
I don't even know the point of the post. Talking to a bunch of strangers. Fuck me.
I've been crying the last few days thinking about all the seriously fucked up shit I did to myself and my family to get high over the last 17 years. Some I've posted here, but the most fucked up shit I haven't mentioned to anyone (which is the shit that makes me cry).
It's OK for a grown man to cry.... right?
Good luck to me.... I'm no warrior... I'm a victim....????? I tell myself that I love myself but it's a lie...
Now I'm scared to go to sleep.
I like giving advice on other people relapsing... I'm just a hypocrite.
I was sober from alcohol for nearly 10 days, I'm fucked up now.
Now I've convinced myself I'm going to cop some H tomorrow because I'm drunk. God give me strength to avoid it. I nearly died twice ~3 months ago. Seriously fuck me.
I'm begging I wake up tomorrow sober and forget this drive to relapse ever happened. Wishful thinking.
I don't even know the point of the post. Talking to a bunch of strangers. Fuck me.
I've been crying the last few days thinking about all the seriously fucked up shit I did to myself and my family to get high over the last 17 years. Some I've posted here, but the most fucked up shit I haven't mentioned to anyone (which is the shit that makes me cry).
It's OK for a grown man to cry.... right?
Good luck to me.... I'm no warrior... I'm a victim....????? I tell myself that I love myself but it's a lie...
Now I'm scared to go to sleep.
I like giving advice on other people relapsing... I'm just a hypocrite.
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