Captain.Heroin
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Today sucked. Had a return of the really bad feelings after therapy. My mom drug me too the house I'm kicked out of so I rummaged through the wreckage of my past life. It hurt. I self harmed all over my right arm. Wrote loser in razor blade cuts. That'll make a nice scar tattoo for life. I'm going to take the rest of my Ativan tommorow. Fuck saving it I need it now. I hate being dramatic but I'm seriously considering eating the bottle of propanolol I have hidden tommorow and dieing. It's the only drug I have access too with a known ld-50
Stay strong man. Try not to cut yourself. It's not going to help
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