I can't edit posts on mobile for whatever reason but I have to say that the amount of delusion the benzos caused cannot be properly downplayed. I've been lost for months but I didn't even realize it.
Thank you all for caring I really don't know what I would do without the support and advice I have received here. I'm going to take it slow from here. This one is really stinging right now.
Take care of yourselves
How are you feeling cj?
Scared, anxious, desperate, its hard to know how I feel from one moment to the next. I have a bad feeling I haven't been properly tapered and am suffering brain damage. This is the first time I have ever heard voices before and its so fucking unsettling. I know I am kinda old for my first psychotic break but I cant get the possibility out of my head. My mind is my most valuable asset and I feel I may have wrecked it. I have 1 more mg of Ativan for in the morning then its going to be game time I guess.
Thanks for checking up and caring. I am not in a position to get a better taper or more benzos so any advice outside of those two is welcome.
The reason I cant do inpatient rehab is that I want to stay on methadone.
Im just not ready to get off methadone. I plan to be on methadone for a long time. Plus I have my hands plenty full right now with the benzos.You should consider getting off methadone too. Why not take this opportunity to get clean? They can taper you comfortably. Keep calling around, eventually somewhere will be able to taper you off methadone.
Flumazenil is a bad idea.
You should consider getting off methadone too. Why not take this opportunity to get clean? They can taper you comfortably. Keep calling around, eventually somewhere will be able to taper you off methadone.
Flumazenil is a bad idea.
Im just not ready to get off methadone. I plan to be on methadone for a long time. Plus I have my hands plenty full right now with the benzos.
Why is it a bad idea - just curious as I don't know that much about it but it is used in rapid detoxes. To my knowledge I have not had it, unless it was administered to me on one of my OD visits to the ER, which I don't remember. It seems like a valid option if someone can't get anymore benzos but is addicted as it seems to stop some of the neurological damage that can occur with cold turkey cessation. However, there I late not a lot of experience stories regarding it which makes me wonder why.
I'm still concerned for you, and I am concerned about your situation. Unfortunately nothing you are taking is really pleseant to get off of...however, if you were only on benzos for three months it shouldn't last too long - certainly not like the horror stories you read where it takes years to recover.
It's an injectible benzodiazepine antagonist. If you use too much, you'll have a seizure. If you use it while on benzodiazepines, you'll have a seizure.
It's only suitable as an antidote, and in animal/human studies.
I've seen some interesting studies that show it can aid in the detox process, however, none of this was done outside of a hospital setting.