Psychedalienation
Bluelighter
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- Apr 28, 2016
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I can't let go. I can't stop thinking with my ego. I can't stop thinking about what other people think about my words and actions. I live in a house full of maximal egotists as well. This means I have no one to turn to. They won't understand. They're who I learned this from I'm starting to see.
I use Twitter/social media way too much. All it is is a platform to broadcast the ego every which way. I feel very confused right now and have a slight headache. I want to let go. I want to understand that perception that people who have experienced ego-death see. I hate the way I think.
Every single time I think, I'm analyzing it now, and it equates to egotism.
How do I do it? There must be a way to work up to it. I'm sure it is not possible to do instantaneously. Especially in a my particular situation. So what can I do? I listen to Alan Watts and those always seem to help but it never lasts. I always end up back to square one within a week or two.
I'm planning a psilocybin mushroom trip but I don't want to embark on that journey at square one. It is a tool not a heal-all so I want to start somewhere.
Where do I start?
(I don't really want to hear anything about "God" or anything of that nature, this is purely philosophical, thank you.)
I use Twitter/social media way too much. All it is is a platform to broadcast the ego every which way. I feel very confused right now and have a slight headache. I want to let go. I want to understand that perception that people who have experienced ego-death see. I hate the way I think.
Every single time I think, I'm analyzing it now, and it equates to egotism.
How do I do it? There must be a way to work up to it. I'm sure it is not possible to do instantaneously. Especially in a my particular situation. So what can I do? I listen to Alan Watts and those always seem to help but it never lasts. I always end up back to square one within a week or two.
I'm planning a psilocybin mushroom trip but I don't want to embark on that journey at square one. It is a tool not a heal-all so I want to start somewhere.
Where do I start?
(I don't really want to hear anything about "God" or anything of that nature, this is purely philosophical, thank you.)
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