sailor bugg
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jun 2, 2014
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My sleep is totally fucked up, I stay awake for 3 days and then get 1 night of sleep and then it repeats. I feel so hopeless and lost, I might as well off myself. It wouldn't make a difference if I was gone, I'd fade away into the dark and be forgotten. Really why do I bother? My life is worthless and has no point, and never will at this rate. I've never accomplished anything worthwhile and fallen short countless times. Maybe it's the lack of sleep and being alone at 4:30am with nothing but the thoughts of how worthless my life has been. I've tried to off myself three times and miraculously failed each time, well fuck this time it's going to work. I'll make sure to be somewhere where no one can get to me, shoot a half gram of dope and lay face down in the bath tub when it's full of water. If the dope doesn't kill me, I'll drown…… I really feel like this is what my only choice is. For once I'll have some control, the control to end everything. Fuck it, the more I think about this the more I want to do this. I really am not happy and want to stop all this. Soon…. soon…..