What can I do about it? It's bad... I hate it and I want it to go away.
Being in a room with white walls is really stressful because there's odd, bright, almost glowing colored shadows (they should definitely not be there) on random objects in random places... it's EXTREMELY detrimental to my college education because our classrooms are all white rooms, with white dry erase boards and no posters on the wall... Random surfaces will be crawling and moving, but not all of them. Sometimes I feel like I can't even see... this is all a bit hard to explain, but I'm sure a lot of people here know what I'm talking about.
I get the worst anxiety all the time and anxiety hasn't previously been an issue for me in life. For a while, I thought the anxiety was coming from a weakened state of mind (which I thought was unacceptable) but now I'm starting to learn that HPPD is linked to anxiety.
I haven't been able to do any drugs, especially psychedelics (I wish I could, I love them...), because of the anxiety and freaking out over absolutely nothing.
Of course, because I decided that my mind was weakened, I decided to start smoking weed again to get over those anxious thought loops. Well, now my HPPD is REALLY bad and seems to be taking over my life.
Obvious answer: Stop doing drugs for a good, long while. I'm gonna have to suck it up and find another way to strengthen my mental state... so be it.
But what else can I do? Is there anything but time that can help make this process a little more bearable?
I can't concentrate in class, I have trouble understanding my textbook because I just can't concentrate, and I have trouble interacting with people at work... this is just so hard to deal with! I thought I could overcome anything but this is really proving to be an enormous challenge in my life that I've been struggling with for years now... =/
Any suggestions will be avidly attempted!
Being in a room with white walls is really stressful because there's odd, bright, almost glowing colored shadows (they should definitely not be there) on random objects in random places... it's EXTREMELY detrimental to my college education because our classrooms are all white rooms, with white dry erase boards and no posters on the wall... Random surfaces will be crawling and moving, but not all of them. Sometimes I feel like I can't even see... this is all a bit hard to explain, but I'm sure a lot of people here know what I'm talking about.
I get the worst anxiety all the time and anxiety hasn't previously been an issue for me in life. For a while, I thought the anxiety was coming from a weakened state of mind (which I thought was unacceptable) but now I'm starting to learn that HPPD is linked to anxiety.
I haven't been able to do any drugs, especially psychedelics (I wish I could, I love them...), because of the anxiety and freaking out over absolutely nothing.
Of course, because I decided that my mind was weakened, I decided to start smoking weed again to get over those anxious thought loops. Well, now my HPPD is REALLY bad and seems to be taking over my life.
Obvious answer: Stop doing drugs for a good, long while. I'm gonna have to suck it up and find another way to strengthen my mental state... so be it.
But what else can I do? Is there anything but time that can help make this process a little more bearable?
I can't concentrate in class, I have trouble understanding my textbook because I just can't concentrate, and I have trouble interacting with people at work... this is just so hard to deal with! I thought I could overcome anything but this is really proving to be an enormous challenge in my life that I've been struggling with for years now... =/
Any suggestions will be avidly attempted!