No, I've actually written about how opioids make me sentimental (in a positive way), affectionate and romantic. They don't blunt my emotions at all. That's something benzos are notorious for and the reason I don't like them because I already perceive my feelings as if they are behind a thick fog, but opioids take that fog away. You know that feeling when you see the world through rose colored glasses while in love with someone? That's exactly how opioids feel like. You get instant access to that feeling with the push of a button.
If you scroll up you'll see that the issue was actually caused by low testosterone, which I solved with the application of ULDN. If you go read about the psychological symptoms of low testosterone levels you'll see how it pretty much mimics depression.
I have been legally on a rather low dose of oxycodone, morphine er and Ativan(lorazepam)for 6-7 years.
I quit the morphine er and switched to Valium from Ativan.
Besides doing 2 decades of alcohol damage, I am scared 6-7 years of opiates and benzos have destroyed my desire to do just about anything.
Lethargy, depression, deep sadness, mood issues and insomnia.
I am in a bind. I need the oxycodone to eat and not be in pain and I can't just quit the Valium.
Do you think the benzos or the opiates are destroying my mind. Can this be reversed if so.
I find no pleasure in just about everything. I use to have interest in so many things, not anymore.
Read a book, watch a documentary or movie and play with my phone. That's about it, anymore. I find happiness so rarely.
Is there anything to do to regain interest in so many hobbies I use to have.
Is it my pills, 3 decades of depression and can one learn to laugh and be happy after all that.
Have benzos destroyed my mind? Can it be reversed. Or is it just depression and not having any real contact with people? I take care of the basics and not much else. Have I further destroyed my mind with long term benzo use?