I decided to just tell him.
Me: "i just wanted to let you and J know that y'all have been great friends to me this past year, and I never really say it, but i have a lot of respect for the both of you and I'm just happy that ive had the chance to know you guys and experience things like LSD with yall. I was going to let yall know that last night but i didn't have a chance to, but y'all are my homies and i just wanted to let yall know that i appreciate the both of you being in my life and all the shit yall have done for me."
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Him: "Yeah man same to u Ik ur one of J's good friends and ur a good friend to me as well dude its going to sucks when you leave for college."
Without LSD I would have never been able to tell my buddy this, it would have felt awkward and my pesky ego was trying to tell me "No, what if they think it's weird" but i told them, even if it was just through a text. I truly love these people and I'm happy to have known them and I hope they remain parts of my life for years to come