Although it's actually been getting a bit better lately and it's not as pronounced now as it used to be in the past, I still do have it to a lesser degree - a passive death wish. You know, that feeling of apathy and indifference towards your own life. The feeling that despite not actively planning or attempting to end your own life, if you were to suddenly die you wouldn't actually mind all that much. Not that you would purposefully jump in front of a speeding train, but if you somehow were to be hit by one you wouldn't really try moving out of the way. That feeling of lying in the bed at night wishing you don't wake up the next morning.
I'm interested to know how many drug addicts/users have a passive death wish and to what degree does addiction contribute to it. Or if it’s not actually drug related, but has more to do with my depression/BPD than with my drug addiction?
What is a Passive Death Wish?
Do you guys have a passive death wish? Please cast a vote and/or discuss below, I'm looking forward to reading your replies.
I'm interested to know how many drug addicts/users have a passive death wish and to what degree does addiction contribute to it. Or if it’s not actually drug related, but has more to do with my depression/BPD than with my drug addiction?
What is a Passive Death Wish?
Source: https://www.refinery29.com/amp/en-us/what-is-passive-suicidal-ideationPassive suicidal ideation [or passive death wish] is characterized by thinking about dying or a desire to be dead, without actively making a specific plan to carry out those thoughts.
Passive ideation manifested in my life as a blunted ache that rippled in and out of focus, usually accompanying periods of undiagnosed depression. Thinking about no longer existing served as a way to field overwhelming emotions — a temporary coping strategy that morphed into a patterned response to pain. When things felt viscerally bad, I imagined relief in going to sleep and never waking up again. But I never truly wanted to die.
Do you guys have a passive death wish? Please cast a vote and/or discuss below, I'm looking forward to reading your replies.
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