67.5mg hydrocodone, 2mg clonazepam, 40mg cyclobenzaprine, 90mg DXM, 12mg chlorphenirimine, 600mg cimetidine to potentiate.
About to start smoking weed. The meth is still wearing off but way down from earlier.
Have you ever thought about not using psychedelics/uppers, @TryptamineDreamer?
I am chillin' drinking OJ waiting for the drug man.
Don't like uppers a lot. The weird thinking is also not much like a normal psychedelic trip. Maybe some of that, but the meth OD I described was dominated by anxiety and fear at least when I had trouble holding on to my mind or my BP was especially high and it did not have the sort of "mind-expanding cosmic awareness, boundless infinite love, and self disintegration", and other things I don't know how to describe that I'd feel on psychedelics. The first time I did a big dose of meth seemed closer to actual psychedelia and was not negative at all that I remember.
Not going to stop tripping, that won't happen. I want to try some new psychedelics, especially LSZ and 25E-NBOMe. I've been at it a long time and intend to continue tripping the rest of my life, even if I stop all other drug use (which I would not rule out completely). I mean, psychedelics are by far my favorite type of drug. (I love opiates too, but all I have had for several years with 3 or 4 exceptions is hydrocodone and I like poppies and morphine a lot better. I may be able to get one of two fentanyl analogs really cheap but I don't want to be scammed so I'll probably try MT-45 first and I may have found some other opiates I can get that sound a lot better than MT-45 or hydrocodone. I am attempting to get a heroin connect but don't know if I'll get it or not. I doubt I'll stop meth if I can't find a better opiate than hydrocodone cheap enough to use in large amounts, unless I tripped more, probably not a good choice - I trip enough or too much depending on the time period unless I have nothing to trip on).
I'd probably keep tripping if I knew it would destroy me. I usually have fun with them and they don't cause depression. I also didn't turn into a weird freak from tripping too much - I started feeling like that when I was just a kid and when I am not tripping my ass off, I know how crazy it would be to believe that shit was real. Just mentioned that because it was a source of the bad thoughts. All the tripping might have made me weirder though. And I can get sort of like that when manic, just a lower level and not persistently nuts. I did believe some crazy shit from the time I was 16 until I was 18 due to psychotic depression which ended maybe 12 hours after the first time I ingested a psychedelic, HBWR seeds (I believe I put that report on Erowid a long time ago and I think it was published). If the concern was that psychedelics caused me to feel like a freak (as a kid/teen like I might actually be part of an experiment or part alien) and I have those kinds of crazy thoughts when sober now, then you can stop worrying. If it is the bad trips I described, those just happened to be the most interesting ones connected to my thoughts while overdosing on meth, not a good representation of a typical trip. And even the bad trips can be lots of fun to remember having. If you think I'll overdose and die, now that could happen but I also like mixing many downers together to get high and I could at least just as easily bite the dust doing that.
I OD'd on 25C-NBOMe (if it was an overdose) because I saw some lint in my pipe and wanted to get it out. The pipe was all curvy, so I started burning it but it vaporized, and I did not want to waste that last bit even though I was tripping hard and that stuff is way too potent to smoke or ingest an unknown amount if you know and care about possible negative consequences. I was too depressed to give a fuck most likely.
That rant about being stuck in my head while my body does horrible things was mostly just me thinking about what could happen if I ended up in that state - I did not have much concern it could happen (I think I stated that) but I got carried away thinking more about it.
I have done way too much DXM the last few months. I need to not touch DXM again for a while unless tiny doses to go with hydrocodone (90mg-150mg).
I could stop using uppers as they are not much fun unless you have people to talk with and things to do, they make me depressed if I use very much, and they raise my blood pressure too much if I use a lot. This time was nice and even though I dosed a lot higher than I planned, it did not cause too many weird thoughts. But the previous time was sort of hellish. And I'll soon find out if it makes me depressed enough to regret it.
I don't mind anyone asking things like that and I was probably being too defensive. Just not quite sure why I should stop tripping or what aspects of my experience was of concern (the overdose should be an obvious one, but it seemed to me you either thought psychological issues I mentioned were from tripping or you were under the impression the thoughts/hallucinations/delusions I described having during the OD and trips seemed real to me when I am sober.
I likely have it wrong - you can let me know your concern if you like. It won't stop me from tripping, but if it seems reasonable I may change something - you wouldn't be the first person to make me stop and think about the things I do.
Update:
Damn, I just got really strong euphoria. I mean off ... the ... charts
Also forgot to include the 300mg of Lyrica/pregabalin in the first post.
Got a question: Does anyone around here like 1,4 butanediol? I'm probably going to buy some I read some trip reports that aren't sounding very promising so it will probably just be something to add in a conservatively moderate amount to my downer combos, but one said it was almost the same as GHB. I'll just look tomorrow but I want to feel my body rub against pleasant feeling things and feel the air. It feels really good and I don't want to use this up looking for 1,4 BDO info - it would reduce pleasure.
Update 2:
Been like nine more hours and I am still not tired, just calm and relaxed. I did wash a pipe out and squirt the dirty water up my ass a little after update 1. Definitely had meth in it. Had 37.5mg hydrocodone, 1.5mg clonazepam, 50mg cyclobenzaprine, and 120mg DXM+20mg chlorpheniramine+600mg cimetidine mostly to potentiate the HC but that might be a threshold dose of DXM. Gonna have more weed, a little phenibut, a beer, a couple more Lyricas, and possibly more if there is anything else I can add that might be good. For some reason, this feels sort of like MDMA now. Maybe all the things I mix together.
