I don't know what to advise you other than to speak to a doctor. My knowledge of this stuff is super limited. I have an addictive personality and when I get into something I really, really get into it. When I was drinking I was going for about 10 beers a day, plus around a litre of vodka at one point. So if I can get the benzos under control, I'm sure anybody can.
My life situation is really rough, too. Any escape from having to experience the normal, I'll take. I had a family and a nice house with a nice big garden that was all paid for. Somehow I managed to lose all that. I live with it every day, and live with the fact that my son, who was absolutely my best bud, will barely talk to me any more. I'm unemployed, and too scared of everything to get back into the working world. My new partner pays the rent for us, and has a good job. I used to own a company that earned me enough money to buy and pay off my house and some land (which I also lost) in the space of about 6 years. Now it's a success if I shower every day and manage to keep my apartment clean. The person I'm with now has a personality disorder and I try my best to cope with that, on top of everything else. Not even having the safety net of thinking I could just leave if I needed to. At best I have maybe 400 euros in the bank. And all of that, I didn't give a fuck about when I was taking my xanax. Now I'm back to having to deal with reality, but if I can do it, I'm sure you can.