Yea. I hear you. What makes this all the more difficult is that overall they are a positive. - I'm definitely going to speak up and remain true to myself if it gets to be a huge deal. As it went with this specific issue, I met with a more reasonable family member this morning, and there are now new "rules" which aren't entirely logical, and a slight inconvenience, but reasonable enough. I expressed willingness to follow the new protocol, and it looks like a blow-up has been avoided.
hopeless
life is overwhelming. Thought I would come on here to cheer myself up...did something kind of stupid. Miss you all.
-Badfish
Happy
yesterday, I kept telling myself "man I feel goofy and giddy" then it hit me, holy fuck I am content and happy. Kinda fucked up that I don't really know what happiness feels like, but its pretty awesome.