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Good. I mean Im clean from drugs for 2 months and while the psychological part of the w.d. lasted too long or at least longer than I would expect, it's far over now. Im feeling strong and ready to enjoy life.
 
CoastTwoCoast said:
Fucked. Not the good kind.

I had the worst dream. Woke up in an unknown place, as if I was drugged and put there. Guys and a couple girls surrounded me. They said "Did you beat up someone in a purple coat?" I said "No. I didn't do anything!" They surrounded me like they wanted to hurt me and I ran out of the house. One of the guys said "You can run, but I'll find you!" So I ran around yelling "HELP! HELP! PLEASE!" It was some desolate area. I finally found a restaurant and begged to use a phone. It's like the workers in the restaurant also knew me and were against me, they were snickering. I called my mom hysterically and told her I woke up in an unknown place and that guys are trying to kill me. I kept saying "MOM! CAN YOU HEAR ME? PLEASE HELP! THEY'RE COMING FOR ME!" While I was on the phone with her, the guys were coming toward me. I knew I was about to be dead.

I'm just not ok. I should expect this around this time of month and just suck it up. Bitching on sites isn't going to make my problems go away.
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Talking about a dream that scared you and bitching ain't the same thing. What is special about this time of month that makes nightmares expectable?
 
bomber said:
Talking about a dream that scared you and bitching ain't the same thing. What is special about this time of month that makes nightmares expectable?
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Good question. Could be a touch of Ritalin and benzo withdrawal. Ran out a bit early, but who knows? I just expect insomnia usually and when I finally sleep, my worst fucking insecurities/demons show up. I was sleeping really good tonight though, no dreams.

I am really happy you've been clean for 2 months! :)

I'm feeling determined and more hopeful at the moment.
 
Your withdrawling ? Ya thats sounds like the problem as far as insomnia . Least with the benzos idk bout ridalin
.. Hope you are ok , glad u got some sleep last night. Insomnia is no fun. Try to shake the dreams off . This will pass. I hate waking up after a giant nightmare. Escsecially the ones that stick with you. Like a crappy sick feeling that just follows you through out the day.
Glad u r better today!
 
Scared.

My depression/anxiety induced eating issues are getting worse and now I'm worried about being able to find anything to eat that won't make me sick. I need to fucking eat because I need to work because I need a job to survive....why is this so fucking difficult. Why is eating such an issue....I used to love eating...now it's literally torture....I hate this fucking shit.
 
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