manboychef
Bluelighter
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Holidays are hard for me. But what is virtue without temptation.
Sometimes I wonder if my son even knows who the letters are from, or that I try to call all the time. It makes me shrug off touch of others. The fact that my ex has caused this to happen implies that it can indeed happen again....so why try again.
It is not knowing if he wants me as his father that causes me to have so many sleepless nights...and I have at least a few more years till he has the capacity to reach out. I still hope everyday, that has not diminished, but I do fear the answer.
Sometimes I wonder if my son even knows who the letters are from, or that I try to call all the time. It makes me shrug off touch of others. The fact that my ex has caused this to happen implies that it can indeed happen again....so why try again.
It is not knowing if he wants me as his father that causes me to have so many sleepless nights...and I have at least a few more years till he has the capacity to reach out. I still hope everyday, that has not diminished, but I do fear the answer.
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