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Greenlighter
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So at first it's just a runny nose/grouchiness/some insomnia. It gets worse and worse each time you face it let me tell ya. Eventually you'll be begging to find some opies to knock it away, and by that time the withdrawal doesn't last a couple days--it's more like a month or two. One time I went cold turkey for as long as possible--I felt awful for 4 months and even then was still recovering. The physical part went away after the first month or so, but then still had trouble sleeping and eating greasy food. I was still noticeably depressed and the cravings were at their max. The only time I've been drinking daily is this time period where I could not for the life of me figure out how to enjoy life without them. The booze helped a bit, but only at night time. It's not ideal to go through every time and most people can't force themselves to do it. Not saying you have to quit, but what's in store long term.
Many people think they can quit at any time and just face the consequences no matter what. You're greeted by a flat and grey world that's difficult to enjoy literally anything. Most people find themselves relapsing or forced onto a recovery program (like suboxone/methadone). Thought I could leave at the end of the year.. it's been almost 4 years now on and off returning. I wouldn't underestimate opiate use. For many it's a life sentence and they don't even realize it until many years later how almost impossible abstinence can be. Relapsing is part of the process to recovery in my opinion, and eventually you relapse less and less and you're in theory out. The problem is that the cravings really never stop and there's no reward for sobriety like there is when that legendary feeling hits you. It can be daunting to adjust to life without opiates. It takes a very loooooong time for the natural endorphins to return especially after prolonged use.
I was totally sober at one point. Couldn't handle for months on end feeling like I was in a colorless life without anything to look forward to. I ended up relapsing and my doses tripled what they used to be. This is not too uncommon. (This is only from oxy by the way, heroin for a lot of people has worse horror stories about oth my parents have been addicted and physically dependent on opioids for around 20 years now (so most my life, I'm 25) and my dad's been sick of needing pills every day of his life, he's been taking methadone he buys from ppl but mostly my mom (they're divorced and my mom used to take over 200mg of methadone a day but lowered her doses by a lot and still takes home what she was on so she has a lil more than a few 40mg wafers for my dad each take home)
It REALLY is a life sentence for some people, both my parents have been addicted to opioids for around 20 years (most my life, I'm 25) starting with some good ol' prescribed narcotics. At one point they were even getting hooked up by an infamous doctor from around here many years ago who served time(I think) and lost his medical license. I've even met a couple other friends with parents who were also getting shit from that doc back then.So at first it's just a runny nose/grouchiness/some insomnia. It gets worse and worse each time you face it let me tell ya. Eventually you'll be begging to find some opies to knock it away, and by that time the withdrawal doesn't last a couple days--it's more like a month or two. One time I went cold turkey for as long as possible--I felt awful for 4 months and even then was still recovering. The physical part went away after the first month or so, but then still had trouble sleeping and eating greasy food. I was still noticeably depressed and the cravings were at their max. The only time I've been drinking daily is this time period where I could not for the life of me figure out how to enjoy life without them. The booze helped a bit, but only at night time. It's not ideal to go through every time and most people can't force themselves to do it. Not saying you have to quit, but what's in store long term.
Many people think they can quit at any time and just face the consequences no matter what. You're greeted by a flat and grey world that's difficult to enjoy literally anything. Most people find themselves relapsing or forced onto a recovery program (like suboxone/methadone). Thought I could leave at the end of the year.. it's been almost 4 years now on and off returning. I wouldn't underestimate opiate use. For many it's a life sentence and they don't even realize it until many years later how almost impossible abstinence can be. Relapsing is part of the process to recovery in my opinion, and eventually you relapse less and less and you're in theory out. The problem is that the cravings really never stop and there's no reward for sobriety like there is when that legendary feeling hits you. It can be daunting to adjust to life without opiates. It takes a very loooooong time for the natural endorphins to return especially after prolonged use.
I was totally sober at one point. Couldn't handle for months on end feeling like I was in a colorless life without anything to look forward to. I ended up relapsing and my doses tripled what they used to be. This is not too uncommon. (This is only from oxy by the way, heroin for a lot of people has worse horror stories about withdrawing)
My mom has been on methadone for over a decade and my father been on it a long time too (acquires it from my mom by paying for or being given her extra take home wafers cus she cut her dosages back a lot but still takes 100 something mg a day, I came off 25mg a day and I couldn't fucking imagine those doses..) but my dad, who is an amazing person, still pops various painkillers and on and off buying xans for sleep or running out of / running low on methadone