Thought I'd add to the topic of this thread, I'm a new user to posting on here so please be kind!
To make a long story short I was put on subutex initially, by my internist due to a slew of painful bowel and stomach problems. Id been prescribed various opiates in the past and he finally landed on this as along term pain maintenance drug. The medicine worked amazingly I finally could get back to a healthy weight, I was "healthy" again finally. Or so I thought.
I've only heard of a few other people (personally) who were prescribed suboxone or subtex for reasons other than addiction, I was completely ignorant and young, had no idea the nightmare that was coming. That doctor, subsequently is no longer a doctor, hm wonder why. After a couple years, I started to learn more and more of this medicine and it's detriment. My teeth literally started decaying away (not a pretty sight as you can imagine) and I was convinced I needed to stop taking it, regardless if I'd be sick with my stomach again or not. Although I tapered down, withdrawals were too much for me, and not just physical, I have dealt with incredible physical sickness for years, that is tolerable. I'm talking the crippling depression. It seems endless. And without going into an even longer story, I have lostalmost my entire immediate family at a young age. All those closest to me. Including having my young son taken from me (not by the state or CPS like actually taken taken)
Sooo needless to say I had a lot of demons I was fighting without adding on withdrawal depression. I was afraid I'd become suicidal (again) so I stayed on the subutex.
It numbed me in every aspect of my life I no longer cared for anything, had passions, I was like a zombie.
Now I'm sure most of you if not all of you know the struggles of obtaining this medicine and the costs. It strained my marriage, it ruled my mind, I realized long ago I'm completely addicted to this garbage, it wasn't about being sick anymore. Most subutex doctors refused to treat me because I was not prescribed it for addiction purposes, and pain management doctors hear you're on sub and they close the door to you.my life started to settle and get better so I finally decided one day after being blown off once again by my doctor that I was DONE.
At this point I'd been on 16mg of suboxone for going on 6 years. Read all the horror stories, how paws can last month's, depression some times for the rest of your life. I was terrified. But in my heart I knew this had to stop.
Withdrawals set in after a day or so, got worse, couldn't sleep, etc.all the usual you hear. I was so miserable I googled at home natural remedies for withdrawal, and bingo that's when I found kratom.
I can tell you, it immediately relieved all my symptoms it didn't give a high like pills do, but it definitely lifted my spirits and relieved my pain. And after jumping off suddenly at 16mg of sub you can imagine I had plenty of pain.
The only time I felt any withdrawals was in the morning when I'd wake up. I'd take my 5-6 grams of kratom and I'd be perfectly fine for almost the entire day. I'd take a couple grams in the evening to maintain.
I'm posting this because I promise you, YOU CAN DO THIS I thought I would be on the sub forever, I thought if I quit I'd surely dio something drastic, from the depression. I was 100% hopeless and terrified. Convinced myself for a million reasons to not quite. If I can do it I promise you, you can.
Kratom saved me and I'm happy to say I've been off any medication for 6 weeks and not an ounce of depression or withdrawal. I've began playing music again, doing things I used to love again I'm who I used to be, and it feels so good again. You can too, and if anyone would like any details on how I got through the withdrawals and specifics don't hesitate to ask
Thanks for taking the time to read, don't give up people!