Does anybody sometimes just crave that "wrong"?
whether it is fuckin shit up that u know is gonna cause problems w/the law or other people, that feeling of doing shit that puts you in a spot where it could go either way
Or doing shit that u know youre sick but its too good, u get a perverse pleasure out of it like knowin its wrong
like the feeling u get when u fantasise in depth about givin up and purposely slippin back to a drug u stopped
or actually taking the step and doing it
or when u first started shooting it seeing it happen and u know your in a decline
***but its givin your life this certain kind of energy undercurrent thats keepin u on the edge and givin u some kind of twisted thrills***
makes u feel like youre alive even tho u can tell part of u is dying, and getting off on that too?
seeing someone all skinny and shit obviously cuz of drugs and seeing it as kind of sexy (this is really fuckin with me cuz i normally love big g-lookin guys, kinda the opposite)
well if u think im a fucked up crazy ass bitch cause of feeling this way maybe i am
thats why im asking if anyone else feels me...
i think im just goin crazy
craving the fucked up life i used to have but lately this feelin is so strong im doing shiti wouldnt normally do (or would do back in the day but now know is reckless) and wanting more
am i not wanting to "get better"? sometimes i feel more natural when everything is wrong
holla help me out if u can, is this only me?
whether it is fuckin shit up that u know is gonna cause problems w/the law or other people, that feeling of doing shit that puts you in a spot where it could go either way
Or doing shit that u know youre sick but its too good, u get a perverse pleasure out of it like knowin its wrong
like the feeling u get when u fantasise in depth about givin up and purposely slippin back to a drug u stopped
or actually taking the step and doing it
or when u first started shooting it seeing it happen and u know your in a decline
***but its givin your life this certain kind of energy undercurrent thats keepin u on the edge and givin u some kind of twisted thrills***
makes u feel like youre alive even tho u can tell part of u is dying, and getting off on that too?
seeing someone all skinny and shit obviously cuz of drugs and seeing it as kind of sexy (this is really fuckin with me cuz i normally love big g-lookin guys, kinda the opposite)
well if u think im a fucked up crazy ass bitch cause of feeling this way maybe i am
thats why im asking if anyone else feels me...
i think im just goin crazy
craving the fucked up life i used to have but lately this feelin is so strong im doing shiti wouldnt normally do (or would do back in the day but now know is reckless) and wanting more
am i not wanting to "get better"? sometimes i feel more natural when everything is wrong
holla help me out if u can, is this only me?