Hello. I'm semi-experienced mdma user but i always ended up not maintaining self control and abusing it. Full of brain zaps and severe hangovers after 2 weeks of rolling with 2 days between each roll. The last time i think i got a pma pill, redosed and it messed me up with a huge bad trip, thinking i was dead or in a hospital and everything i see was just a dream, recording voice messages for my gf, which i regretted so much in the morning. So i took a break of 3-4 months and decided to pop again last night. It was in pill form again and was highly recommended from my friends around. It's said to contain 180mg of mdma, tested, and i was going to pop alone because i was really excited and couldn't wait. I popped 3/4 of the pill at first(6.45pm), having a shitty come up with anxiety(although a regular mdma come up anxiety, just prolonged later), then an amazing peak. At the start of the peak, i popped the remaining 1/4. I got the shitty come up again when i redosed, i don't know maybe it was a psychological anxiety? But it messed my peak up. I had a continuous 30-45 minutes of anxiety mixed with euphoria. And when it ended, i only had like 15-30 mins of the peak left, then i came down. I got frustrated and popped 1/2 more, i think 2 hours after the first pop. I got the come up, and as i got the magic, i popped the remaining 1/2 of the second pill. But then it started to go shitty. I had ultra blurry and double vision. And i sweated terribly that my tshirt was seriously wet so was my hair.(typical summer night, around 19-23 celcius) at the same time, i was shivering from cold. Yeah sweating all my fluids away but shivering from cold at the same time. I tried to sleep laying for around 1-2 hours, couldn't sleep. Then i got up to pee, but i still couldn't pee. And i blacked out when i got up. I crouched in toilet and it seemed to ease a bit but when i got up again i would get the black out effect again, i only had a few seconds from a pass out until i crouched again. I tried to walk back to my room but i couldn't even walk straight. Then i ate something, drank a good amount of water, because all i ate that day was 5 slices of bread, i didn't have the apetite even before the roll. I'm in a mild depression for a month, which is why i wanted to pop some e. And as i messed up last night, i really want some answers.
1-why was my peak 'more anxiety-less of real peak' instead of vice-versa? Was it about the first redose?
2-why did i keep blacking out? Any obvious reasons of it?
3-i'm planning on popping 1 today and no redose. can i get an average mdma high without anxiety? Or should i pop 1,5 at once?
4- will drinking a protein shake and eating well enhance my high tonight, as it's a consecutive roll, but last night i felt the peak only for total of 30-60 mins. I want to be filled with happiness tonight!
Thanks
Edit: it probably doesn't contain anything other than mdma, tested by a friend
Slept for about 9 hours last night and i feel pretty normal right now, no hangover at all yet. (Take into consideration i was already in depression but i feel even a little better than before popping)
1-why was my peak 'more anxiety-less of real peak' instead of vice-versa? Was it about the first redose?
2-why did i keep blacking out? Any obvious reasons of it?
3-i'm planning on popping 1 today and no redose. can i get an average mdma high without anxiety? Or should i pop 1,5 at once?
4- will drinking a protein shake and eating well enhance my high tonight, as it's a consecutive roll, but last night i felt the peak only for total of 30-60 mins. I want to be filled with happiness tonight!
Thanks
Edit: it probably doesn't contain anything other than mdma, tested by a friend
Slept for about 9 hours last night and i feel pretty normal right now, no hangover at all yet. (Take into consideration i was already in depression but i feel even a little better than before popping)
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