ShroomySatori
Bluelighter
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- Aug 24, 2015
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My tapering is going well again, but I am running into supply issues. Hopefully I can rectify this tomorrow. Otherwise, I'll be running into problems just like last time. It would be really frustrating and a lot is riding - just like last week - on whether or not I can get my stuff tomorrow.
My last taper was ruined when I was forced into cold turkey, so I really hope that doesn't happen again. I think maybe I learned, and I'm staying true to the logbook, so I'd just keep writing in my diary and keeping to my 8 hour schedule. I really need to raise the dose, today was hell, but I need to get more. If I can't tomorrow I will be completely fucked again. It will ruin my taper because I will freak out. Once I get a little more I'll be able to stick to my taper, but adjust my dose a little higher because the suffering was unbearable today. I really need to get my shit tomorrow or otherwise I'm going to be so screwed exactly like the last week. However, I'll try to keep in mind the taper this time so when I get it I won't binge like last week. I'm not going through this again and again it is sheer hell. I'm not one to go back and forth like this it's all or nothing for me. Also this is when I shot up for the first time, last week, and I will be forced into that again in order to try and avoid cold turkey. For fucking once can things just work out for me and not ruin my week? I don't want two ruined weeks in a row because it takes a day for me to recover from the low doses that are so hard on my body. I'm sticking to once every 8 hours but now that I'm down to my last little bit, I'm in a panic and that is out the window for now. I'll be shooting the rest if I can't get more and I'm trying my fucking best to avoid that. It happened last time, I don't want it to happen again. I'm actually just pissed off, I need my shit and I have the fucking money so it's really frustrating. I want to keep tapering, I just want to slightly raise my dose so that it isn't sheer torture.
My last taper was ruined when I was forced into cold turkey, so I really hope that doesn't happen again. I think maybe I learned, and I'm staying true to the logbook, so I'd just keep writing in my diary and keeping to my 8 hour schedule. I really need to raise the dose, today was hell, but I need to get more. If I can't tomorrow I will be completely fucked again. It will ruin my taper because I will freak out. Once I get a little more I'll be able to stick to my taper, but adjust my dose a little higher because the suffering was unbearable today. I really need to get my shit tomorrow or otherwise I'm going to be so screwed exactly like the last week. However, I'll try to keep in mind the taper this time so when I get it I won't binge like last week. I'm not going through this again and again it is sheer hell. I'm not one to go back and forth like this it's all or nothing for me. Also this is when I shot up for the first time, last week, and I will be forced into that again in order to try and avoid cold turkey. For fucking once can things just work out for me and not ruin my week? I don't want two ruined weeks in a row because it takes a day for me to recover from the low doses that are so hard on my body. I'm sticking to once every 8 hours but now that I'm down to my last little bit, I'm in a panic and that is out the window for now. I'll be shooting the rest if I can't get more and I'm trying my fucking best to avoid that. It happened last time, I don't want it to happen again. I'm actually just pissed off, I need my shit and I have the fucking money so it's really frustrating. I want to keep tapering, I just want to slightly raise my dose so that it isn't sheer torture.