When people have founf out I was an IV heroin user, nobody has ever thought it was cool....They're usually quite horrified...
A few times I've made the mistake of telling people that seemed like they could handle it because they definitely weren't living traditional lifestyles themselves, and even most of them have reacted badly! Which at the time, I remember thinking, "I thought these people were cool, but they can't handle a little heroin?...phony wanna-bes!"
I have very mixed feelings on the subject....In one post I'll talk about how bad shooting dope is. In the next post, I'll find myself defending "junkies"...It's complicated...I don't think heroin itself is "evil", and I don't think using it automatically makes you a scum-bag, although the majority of people into heroin are scumbags. It can't really be understood unless you've been there...
I've lived on the fringes of society my whole life, whether I was on dope or not....I find society very depressing, shallow and unfulfilling....The American Dream is empty to me...I never wanna settle down, buy a house, an work somewhere for 30 years before retiring, that's boring to me....I always loved the way it felt, but I was also drawn to it just because of how "taboo" it was....but of all the different things I've experimented with, heroin was the one thing that really changed me...It's given me a different perspective on life, death and suffering than I think almost any "normal" person could ever have...so, in some ways I don't regret it...