I was there w/ you, kid. legit, I had no urge to stop because I was doing NOTHING but the drugs. I would get up, think drugs, do drugs, go to work, do more drugs, come home, do more drugs. what I wasnt doing what all the other daily parts of life that people do, such as; bills, eating, sleeping, going out, friends, family, ANYTHING REALLY. my day revolved around work/drugs.
I was spending MUCH more than I could afford and not seeing a thing for the work I put in. I finally started to feel enough is enough. I would use and get ZERO from it. my arms, hands, everything started to show more and more track marks (and I am covered in tats and still seeing marks). the bumps under my skin got worse and worse; so finally I decided enough is enough and to legit give this a shot.
went in w/ a G+ habit and downgraded to a half G. from there I went to bupe at 2-4MG/day on an as needed basis. a week or so ago I stopped using bupe and shot a half G end of last week like a true junkbox. well, I havent used a thing since then and today being Monday I feel FUCKING GOOD!
sure, 3-4 days clean is NOT MUCH.. but coming off a daily habit for years and years I feel fucking great! just need to stay on this track.
my cravings are there but I look at my track marks and they fade. we'll see how long this lasts.. this is truly the LONGEST I've been OFF ALL DRUGS for in probably years and years. kinda sad, huh?