MikeMercury
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 19, 2024
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Here I am again with another query .
12 years light to medium use . Retired male.
Because of constant, relentless heat attacks ..(anything physical triggers one as does as cup of tea.)
I decided to quit and also the supply in U.K. is iffy to say the least. Unfortunately you can't grow poppies in damp, waterlogged clay soggy gardens with virtually no sun.
But I suffer badly with feet neuropathy (nerves dying ) also prostate problems and after trying most everything , guess what the best help I get with both is ? I used it as an antidote for pain and bad discomfort. Now that's gone and I've collected a load more upsets such as RLS, ultra fatigue etc etc.
This last week Ive resorted to the barest , minimum micro amount I can take and get some comfort.
probably 2-3 times a week usually in the small hours . I'm very receptive so a tablespoon of ground straw
Is more than enough.
Now, my problem is I really don't want to give it up but the heat attacks are debilitating ..I suspected testosterone but no. It's long term use effecting part of the brain. (Hypercamus /spelling ? ) Then there's the sporadic supply problem getting worse. It's legal here with constraints.
Its why i decided to see what life without would be like. So far , not very good but I know it takes a long time.
the question is am I scuppering all progress by having these occasional slips ? They are a big relief at the time . If not for the heat attacks and sporadic supply problem I don't think I would quit. I know in another 10-15 years I'll use what ever helps as by then it won't matter that much.
But at the moment is very occasional micro use a disaster ? I imagined a huge long taper until I didn't notice anymore which so far, is what I've done.
12 years light to medium use . Retired male.
Because of constant, relentless heat attacks ..(anything physical triggers one as does as cup of tea.)
I decided to quit and also the supply in U.K. is iffy to say the least. Unfortunately you can't grow poppies in damp, waterlogged clay soggy gardens with virtually no sun.
But I suffer badly with feet neuropathy (nerves dying ) also prostate problems and after trying most everything , guess what the best help I get with both is ? I used it as an antidote for pain and bad discomfort. Now that's gone and I've collected a load more upsets such as RLS, ultra fatigue etc etc.
This last week Ive resorted to the barest , minimum micro amount I can take and get some comfort.
probably 2-3 times a week usually in the small hours . I'm very receptive so a tablespoon of ground straw
Is more than enough.
Now, my problem is I really don't want to give it up but the heat attacks are debilitating ..I suspected testosterone but no. It's long term use effecting part of the brain. (Hypercamus /spelling ? ) Then there's the sporadic supply problem getting worse. It's legal here with constraints.
Its why i decided to see what life without would be like. So far , not very good but I know it takes a long time.
the question is am I scuppering all progress by having these occasional slips ? They are a big relief at the time . If not for the heat attacks and sporadic supply problem I don't think I would quit. I know in another 10-15 years I'll use what ever helps as by then it won't matter that much.
But at the moment is very occasional micro use a disaster ? I imagined a huge long taper until I didn't notice anymore which so far, is what I've done.
I don't think anything bad and I am not trolling you. But your heated heart seems to be in the ego fatigue realm atm. Hope it will pass soon or that oneyou good quality bag finds you without you even asking for it. Been away for a while but I remember your battle between two loves in (off?) your life. Hope you're feeling cool and at peace. Take care everyone and sorry for one off topic post. Keep on and be good to your hypothalamus...look how long has HT been good for us who have a spine. 
