yo guys,
So the other night I went out to a party and met this girl. She was a close friend of my bro and so she made me feel pretty comfortable as we were talking about stuff (I have an anxiety disorder). Not sure whether it was the anxiety or not, but I didn't really feel like our conversation was great. I been really depressed and busy with work so I didn't really know what to talk about, but for some reason she kept coming around back to talk to me.
Anyyway I got the idea that she might be into me, I bought her a few drinks and we were both absolutely hammered and I ended up asking if she wanted to leave together to which she responded yeees. I started getting heaps of anxiety because I felt like I was leading her on as I held her hand. I ended up kissing her later and eventually I was almost having a panic attack so I told her that I wasn't interested in a relationship. She said thats find and that she felt comfortable with me, so we ended up getting an awkward drunk cab ride back to her place.
We had crazy sex, I hardly slept, and she seemed fine the next morning, I kissed her on the cheek and said goodbye and that was that.
I thought she was cool so I added her on facebook but she didn't accept it! I felt so cut even though I'm the guy who said I didn't want a relationship... I can't stop ruminating on my cringy tentative behaviour...
Most likely I'm making it sound worse than it is, but yeah basically I feel like a loser lol.
Any ideas / suggestions for my issues guys?
So the other night I went out to a party and met this girl. She was a close friend of my bro and so she made me feel pretty comfortable as we were talking about stuff (I have an anxiety disorder). Not sure whether it was the anxiety or not, but I didn't really feel like our conversation was great. I been really depressed and busy with work so I didn't really know what to talk about, but for some reason she kept coming around back to talk to me.
Anyyway I got the idea that she might be into me, I bought her a few drinks and we were both absolutely hammered and I ended up asking if she wanted to leave together to which she responded yeees. I started getting heaps of anxiety because I felt like I was leading her on as I held her hand. I ended up kissing her later and eventually I was almost having a panic attack so I told her that I wasn't interested in a relationship. She said thats find and that she felt comfortable with me, so we ended up getting an awkward drunk cab ride back to her place.
We had crazy sex, I hardly slept, and she seemed fine the next morning, I kissed her on the cheek and said goodbye and that was that.
I thought she was cool so I added her on facebook but she didn't accept it! I felt so cut even though I'm the guy who said I didn't want a relationship... I can't stop ruminating on my cringy tentative behaviour...
Most likely I'm making it sound worse than it is, but yeah basically I feel like a loser lol.
Any ideas / suggestions for my issues guys?