That sounds reasonably negative to me.
It definitely is a real downer.
But I was thinking about the bad side effects that are associated with overuse or lost magic.
I always have an afterglow, never any come down, never any anxiety. It's just tieredness. It's the same tieredness I get when I get sleep attacs btw.
Perhaps yeah but I think it's actually quite common amongst users.
Nope. Might give that a shot next time actually.
It's good to know that it's normal.
You try that, I'll try taking the dexies with my initial dosage the next time. I'll update un how it goes.
I find it difficult to entertain that it's tolerance when it still happened last week after not taking the drug for a whole 9 months! There's just no way that tolerance, in the traditional sense, would not be back to baseline after 9 months of no usage. Although I do take amphetamines reasonably regularly for studying and did so over a large portion of that period. Maybe that factored in.
But then it shouldn't be loss of magic either? Or? I don't think that fits in my case, I still roll just at much as the first time (of course a bit different since my first time was mixed with meth), and of a normal dosage.
This is very similar to my experiences. I can't help but feel that we both experience similar scenarios but just describe them slightly differently. Once I 'wake up' or 'break through' or 'go over the edge' or however you want to describe it I'll be buzzing my tits off ferociously. In fact I'll usually be one of those guys that looks incredibly high with monster pupils and acting hilariously stupidly. But until that moment at usually about 2.5-3 hours into the experience, I won't be enjoying the MDMA and feel lethargic, strange and unable to properly enjoy it. I've got a raving buddy who's the same in the sense that he says it can take him 2-3 hours to come-up. Then again, he doesn't test his MD and takes far larger doses than I do (300-500mg throughout an evening).
It could be that it's the same. These things are really difficult to describe. I definitely feel strange, like caught between a dream and reality (this feeling I also get under a sleep attack).
I've taken too little with my old batch, but that felt different (but again, that was cut with meth). Like I definitely knew I wasn't up. A bit tiered with that as well, even though it was meth in it. So I guess it could be that I'm just not over the edge, and pure MDMA making me extremely tiered.
I also get huge pupils after only 30-40 mins, but I get huuge pupils out of everything that had this effect, and regardless of dosage.
I'm usually up within an 1-1.5 hour (or was with my old batch). This time it took me 30-40 minutes more, since the dexies had to work. Took them after an hour, had to wait til I had puked.