Solipsis
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While clinically DMT has no appreciable lasting effects on the brain, I think DMT and 5-MeO-DMT can both trigger chronic episodes. Most often they are caused by traumatic experiences, if there is unbearable terror it can cause panic that lasts for months or years if we can believe some reports (on Erowid among other places). But also these are still psychedelics which can facilitate and catalyze mental processes intensely. You basically having other reasons to be depressed about but having the depression precipitate right during and after the DMT trip are not mutually exclusive explanations. It seems to me that before the trip the issues were latently there but fixed in place while you were able to follow your life and habits.
Then you went through the supremacy that is DMT and maybe it loosened things up while possibly completely jumbling up your orientation in the universe. Being exposed to that is a privilege but it can be a heavy load to bear. For heaven's sake you can throw a bong around PD and skip it off 4 people who had a difficult time from psychedelics use. And being a psych major may keep you up to date on depression and what DSM-IV has to say about things (I don't mean to be belittling) but it doesn't necessarily make you better equipped to handle it all and integrate such experiences, being witness to such things can raise a lot of questions and make a person 100 times as self-aware about what they are doing with their lives and who they are. If you have reasons to be dissatisfied there may be psychological / spiritual reasons why this is all pouring out now.
However from the sounds of it you are finding the symptoms of your depression disproportionate to your issues, almost like strong dysthemia?
Then you went through the supremacy that is DMT and maybe it loosened things up while possibly completely jumbling up your orientation in the universe. Being exposed to that is a privilege but it can be a heavy load to bear. For heaven's sake you can throw a bong around PD and skip it off 4 people who had a difficult time from psychedelics use. And being a psych major may keep you up to date on depression and what DSM-IV has to say about things (I don't mean to be belittling) but it doesn't necessarily make you better equipped to handle it all and integrate such experiences, being witness to such things can raise a lot of questions and make a person 100 times as self-aware about what they are doing with their lives and who they are. If you have reasons to be dissatisfied there may be psychological / spiritual reasons why this is all pouring out now.
However from the sounds of it you are finding the symptoms of your depression disproportionate to your issues, almost like strong dysthemia?